Deanna Frost vs. Sarah Wolf

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The Guard Tower

Everything is an experience…

That’s something I’m sure everyone here has learned at one point or another in their lives. Maybe you heard it from your mother or father or maybe your grandfather passed it on with an adage of ‘back in my day…’, spinning tales that made you question whether or not your grandparents were part of an old Flintstones episode.

But I learned it from my sister, Amy. Like me, Amy came out at a young age as a lesbian and was ridiculed and bullied for it. I don’t blame our hometown for it – times were just… not as far along in some areas. I remember, when I was a kid, waking up because I had a nightmare and walking down the hall to her room because I couldn’t sleep. And in the dark, I heard crying coming from her room. But when I opened the door, I saw her straighten up, wipe her eyes with her hand and smile at me.

And younger me – I never understood why until I was older. But I remember that night because of the nightmare. I dreamed that I was being chased by bullies from my school – but they were monsters. They had sharp teeth, glowing eyes, long claws. The stuff nightmares are made of. They wanted to catch me and hurt me because I liked girls. And my sister, she said that line to me. “Everything is an experience.”. Now… I assume she didn’t want me to experience being chased by monsters any time soon, but rather, everything in life can be used to teach us something.

Why was I having this nightmare?
Why was I afraid?
Why did I run?

Now, here I am – all grown up. And while I don’t believe in ‘boogeymen’ or ‘monsters under the bed’ like a couple of my children do, I still very much believe in what my sister told me. That everything is an experience.

Not the greatest of segways, I’ll admit, but with everything that’s happened recently, I was just reminded of it so strongly. I won’t ignore the elephant in the room. I’ve read every message and text and phone call that’s been sent my way with questions. I’m sorry, guys, that I haven’t been able to answer them all. It wasn’t to be rude. It was because my answer was, basically, still the same.

I know people are wondering about Selena. Some are wondering if she’s okay – thank you for that. Some are wondering if she’s coming back. Some are wondering if all of this is just a big joke or publicity stunt or something…

And while I rather not waste too much time talking about it when I should be promoting what promises to be an epic match for me this Breakdown, I will say: my wife gave nearly ten years of her life to SCW. She loved it with all her heart and soul. For her to leave… it took a lot. To walk away from something you love so passionately? It took so much. As for if/when she’ll be back?

I don’t know. I wish I did. But she’s keeping it all close to the chest even from me. She says she’s done and I… I believe her. I just do.

But as I said, this is an experience. For months, I’ve been complaining about being in Selena’s shadow. Of being seen as ‘the other Frost wife’. Go listen to Sarah Wolf warp that out of whack in her latest promo if you don’t believe me. Now? Selena isn’t here. And it falls onto me to keep trying to make SCW a better place. On my own terms, as me. To try and be my own woman with no other Frost around. I’d rather have her here with me as I work towards having a worthwhile reign as the United States Champion, but this is an experience for me. Being on my own for the first time in my SCW career. Continuing to carve out my own destiny in this federation without my wife here with me…

Speaking of experiences, you all saw my last match? I mean, you want to talk about a wake-up call? Seeing Bree Lancaster dialed in like that? I mean, Rise to Greatness was all about skill and passion and was a match that I will hold dear to me. But that rematch? That was on a whole other level!

I mean, you think about not just the skill of Bree Lancaster, but the precision, the expertise that she used and how she dissected my knee. I’ll tell ya, guys. I couldn’t stop thinking about losing that match. I was scared. I got scared that every step would be my last in that match, where my knee would give out and I’d just hit the mat and be done – like a turtle on its back.

And I’ll tell ya, it was a painful reminder of what is in store for me with this title. People like Bree Lancaster, honorable, talented and Hall of Fame worthy? They can easily become these scary monsters when driven. Like those from my nightmares, they can show their fangs and claws and attack with that ferocity and viciousness – not necessarily out of malice – but because they desire this title or believe in something they can achieve through my defeat. And that says nothing about the actual monsters in this federation…

During that match, I learned from the experience just what it is going to take to be able to hold this title amidst the ranks and stay as the United States Champion. I learned, or rather, I further understood, the plight my wife had to go through in her days holding this title and understood a little more her time here as ‘The Face of SCW’.

And like in my nightmares, I have a choice. I can run from it, knowing it’s only going to get harder. Or I can turn around and face my monsters.

Which leads me back to Sarah Wolf.

Now, Sarah, you’re someone that needs no introduction, am I right? People are still talking about you setting a stage on fire a little over a year ago when you took on the Farmstead Friends, right? And I very much recall our battle for the Underground championship shortly thereafter. In the realms of ‘brutality’, you have certainly played a role that could be on par with the likes of Dillusion and Rachel Foxx.

More recently, you exploded onto the scene of Rise to Greatness, attacking Alexis Quinne and making her your target of a comeback. You showed just how far you’re willing to go to ‘come back into the ranks of SCW’ as it were. Because this is a new Sarah Wolf, right? This is the Sarah Wolf that is ‘unmasked’, a ‘true self’, ‘unhinged’, ‘bloodthirsty’, ‘relentless’, I could go on!

A Sarah Wolf that is someone to be terrified of! Someone that has sworn to ‘bite my flesh’ like a zombie in a bad horror movie!

Now, Sarah, I won’t lie, it’s a little tiring hearing the same thing over and over again from people. That I’m a fake. That I’m placating people. That I’m pretending to be someone I’m not. See, problem with that is, you’re the one that’s, admittedly, been hiding behind a mask. I’m not. What you see is what you get. I get hurt. I get confused. I put my foot in my mouth. But the thing is? That’s who I am. That’s who I’ve always been. I don’t know how to ‘pretend’ like you did. I don’t know how to ‘hide from a problem’ like you did. I just know my choices.

But coming to Breakdown to ‘bite and tear me’? Chomp my flesh? Yeah, that’s kind of scary. That’s kind of intimidating… but I have to ask, Sarah, and you’re not going to like this.

What else? What else are you, this ‘monster’, going to do to me?

I mean, let’s just go back a little, since you wanted to talk about the past. You say you’re not the same Sarah Wolf you’ve been. Not the same woman that fought me a little less than a year ago.

Let me ask you… Do I look like the same Deanna Frost from about a year ago?

Let me break it down for you, Sarah. I survived the Elimination chamber. I got my arm broken by The One. I’ve been bloodied and bruised. I’ve had Kimberly Williams, the icon of the Underground division, use every tool in her arsenal to destroy me and try and drive me into chaos, and I still beat her. I’ve faced people that had promised to tear me apart and break my body and put me on the shelf for good. I’ve taken on legends, icons, former world champions and beaten them! While you were ‘sliding your mask off’, I was here forging my name and my identity, not through dark promos and sneak attacks like you’ve been doing since RTG, but in the trenches beating the best there is to beat!

But you… you’re just gonna ‘bite me’, is that it? Gonna scratch me, is that it?

Well, Sarah, with all respect, you’re welcome to try and bite me and scratch me with your teeth and nails… but you’re gonna have to do a hell of a lot more than that to take me down and ‘leave your mark’. Because I’m not interested in going down because of a bite or a scratch. I am not interested in losing to you just because you want to play ‘monster’.

You know what I am interested in? Finding out if I can beat this ‘new version’ of you. I’m interested in knowing what kind of United States Champion, what kind of superstar, what kind of woman I can be now that I am out of the woods that was Bree Lancaster and Rise to Greatness and its backlash. THIS, for me… is an experience.

It’s an experience for me and an opportunity for me to swim with, yet, another shark, as you put it. To see if this red-maned ‘lioness’ can hop in the water, maybe with a disadvantage of the unknown, and still hold her own! Because let me make this clear, Wolf. The lion is the king of the jungle. Now, I am not interested in touting a king or queen’s name. I don’t believe I’ve earned that and I have a long way to go before I ever believe otherwise. But… lions fight for their domain. They fight for their territory.

And this new SCW? This CHBK-headed SCW? This is my territory now. This is my world. And I want to fight for it! I want to excel in it! I want to stand here and say I am part of this world, I belong here and not a damn person, monster or thing is going to make me leave it!

So tonight, Sarah Wolf, as you stand in the ring across from me… with your claws out and your teeth gnashing, well, my choice is going to be clear.

I won’t be running. I won’t be hiding. I won’t be leaving. I will turn and face you. And I am going to beat you. I am going to beat this ‘monster’ you claim to be. And I don’t care what it takes me. Cause while you try and ‘bite and scratch’? I’ll be clawing and scrapping. And if that doesn’t work? I’ll be kicking and stomping! And if that doesn’t work, I’ll be punching and striking! And if that doesn’t work, I’ll be throwing and tossing you across the ring! Because I know what you ‘want to do’ will not be enough to take me down and I know that it will take so much more to take you down.

The difference? I’m prepared to keep going and keep trying. What are you going to do, monster, after you bite me and I just keep going? After you scratch me and I just keep going? After you make me bleed and I just keep going?

Because that is the only choice for me at this point. An SCW without my wife? I need to keep going. A championship desired by some of the greatest and hungriest and scariest superstars in the world? I need to keep going! A match with a scary, albeit cliched, monster?

I… need… to keep… going.

Tonight, Sarah, you’re not gonna get your ‘stepping stone’. You’re not gonna use me to ‘spring ahead’. No no, tonight!

Tonight, I am going to take those promises – those ‘promises of a monster’ – and burn them out!

Checkmate, bitches!