Konrad Raab vs. Marie Jones

[Konrad Raab]

Chicago, Illinois. Monday 5th February. (Offline)

I had no idea what to expect today, considering Ross had been keeping an eye out on me every single gym session I done. Although he sometimes thinks I overdo the training in the gym, but it's who I am and what these wrestling idiots don't understand. I do things that wrestlers would never dare to do. Anyway Ross had been with me everyday at least when I go to the gym so he can see where my strengths and weaknesses are. Of course I had to race on Saturday due to weather conditions on Sunday they were going to have in Los Angeles so I was able to go straight home on Sunday and relax.

It was going to be either every Mondays or Tuesdays that I would have these sit down sessions and go through what we needed to do and what I wanted to talk about. It all depends on either wrestling matches or racing weather conditions that could be on Tuesdays for sessions. Granted I only have these sessions with Ross because of under SCW contract. So I sat and waited patiently in my home with luckily, my lady friend being in Asia for skateboarding qualifiers she had to do for the Olympics this year, something I promised to her I would be attending and see her do her skateboarding skills one hundred percent.

Still, I was nervous and shaky with these sessions as they never seem to turn out well, even when I work out in the gym, it makes me lose complete focus on Ross being there, but I know he had to be because of working out what I need to mentally improve myself in sports. The psychical isn't a question. The doorbell rang and I went to the phone and saw from a small monitor on the phone Ross standing there and I pressed the button to let him in. He knows about my other homes in Florida and Atlanta as well, although Florida was only used for racing related stuff.

He walked in and had a large briefcase which wasn't something I remember him having, a laptop and somewhat a large book as well. Not sure what I was going to get myself into, but this had me nervous, more so he placed the book on the table and undid his suitcase to get a ton of paperwork out. He was dead quiet with me, mostly to sort things out and got his laptop up and running. When he did, he looked at me and spoke.

Ross Barnes: “I know last week was a very rocky start between us of me calming you down. I know you got a ton of anger issues. I got to say I'm pretty afraid of you because of this. Is this how people view you?”

Konrad Raab: “Good, glad people are scared of me.”

Ross Barnes: “It's not good at all. It only makes you even more lonely and paranoid. You use anger to shut people out as well. No wonder why you barely have anyone support you because you don't let them. So obviously, we need to work on your social interaction with others as well which we will on a later date. But I also notice something with you in the gym that is pretty much of a concern.”

Konrad Raab: “And what would that be?”

Ross Barnes: “We've spoken about your gym addiction, but your stamina is highly concerning. You seem to give up two minutes within the cycle or treadmill run and being negative about yourself with that. So I already see the mental side of you there.”

He should know that my weakness in the ring has always been my stamina, it always has been since even when I started in the wrestling business, but I won't mention any of that because it had always been a concern, but what I didn't realise was it was partly affecting me mentally. I had no problem finishing tasks with stamina, but I just give up going extra miles which I don't understand why that is the case.

Ross Barnes: “So with that being said, this is why there's a lot of paperwork and a large book I brought here. It's what you'll be doing for this week. You have no NASCAR races to do and you sure as hell aren't doing dirt car racing either so you have no excuses on you refusing to do this.”

Ross slide the book to me and I read the title of the book and I shook my head immediately.

Konrad Raab: “Climbing a mountain in Oregon? What has this got to do with improving on my mentality?”

Ross Barnes: “It has everything to do with it. You see, I saw some tasks online where there were some that you easily would overcome, but this one I think is your biggest hurdle. All the rest were too easy for you to achieve and accomplish. This is the one I feel you will struggle with the most, but more satisfaction for you to complete.”

Konrad Raab: “I don't want to climb that mountain.”

Ross Barnes: “Because a monster is scared of heights?”

Konrad Raab: “No you fucking idiot, it's because I don't want to.”

It's pretty clear he hasn't watched me wrestle with my high flying moves I sometimes do because I was being a cruiserweight champion or aiming to back then and I accomplished that in another company many years ago. Of course, it got me mad when he said I got scared of heights and it had nothing to do with it. I put glass of water on the table before he came in and saw he took a few sips already. I know I did.

Ross Barnes: “You can't do things that you want to do the rest of your life. Life does not work like that. Look, we're going to Oregon on Thursday and you're doing that Mount Hood climb the entire weekend because you need to. You need to think about overcoming this struggle you have and it will help you be a champion again.”

Konrad Raab: “I don't think climbing Mount Hood will help.”

Ross Barnes: “But it will because it will help you understand that you've accomplished something big. I don't think you put positive on yourself or have any self belief in being able to do things whatsoever. You have no friends or family really that support your career.”

Konrad Raab: “I actually have my team and my niece thank you very much.”

Ross Barnes: “But are they really pushing you to the next level of achieving greatness of being champion? No because you aren't letting them. In fact, you're not allowing anyone to be positive about you.”

I shook my head at Ross and told him a story about the past which I previously experienced by doing that, but it only made me angry more I think about it.

Konrad Raab: “I was positive and respectful to everyone, but everyone threw that shit in my face. I'm not that weak pathetic man who allowed everyone to shit on me anymore. That's the Konrad they want and I'm not gonna go back to him since it got me fucking nowhere. Fact is I've achieved more in my run now than in the past.”

Ross Barnes: “By threatening death threats at wrestlers?”

Konrad Raab: “No, I became TV and Underground champion. No way I would've been the Underground champion if I was the old Konrad, I tell you right now.”

That was why I refused to change because being Burned In Blood made me a much bigger star than a basic bitch that I was. I was dull and boring

Ross Barnes: “Where's that passion you had for the Underground championship? It seems once you lost the Underground title, you never seemed to care for winning titles again. That's what we need to get you back on. You can't be a wrestler in the business and focus on nothing, but violence. That's not going to achieve anything in the long run.”

Konrad Raab: “I know, shut the fuck up about it.”

Ross Barnes: “I think the loss affected you so much that it got you afraid of going for titles and it seems more than the world title as well. Which is exactly why you're doing this Mount Hood climb in Oregon for three days over the weekend, just doing it for yourself and I want you to climb up there and hear you speak positive thoughts about yourself.”

Konrad Raab: “There's absolutely nothing positive about me right now.”

Of course, signing with Kaulig Racing was something to be positive about, along with winning the Xfinity Series regular and the main championship. I had the most fun trying to burn Kandis than I did on winning the Underground title and that's the truth. I know Ross is trying to convince me to have more passion for wrestling titles again and I got hit with a reality check once again.

Ross Barnes: “There is, but you refuse to find it in yourself. What about bringing in European Wrestlers? That's a big accomplishment because I didn't see other wrestlers doing that, but I do think you need to bring more in besides Dakon and Ludvig, especially when it comes to solos wrestlers. I know you got Kemal coming in.”

Konrad Raab: “Dakon and Ludvig have stated they aren't interested in winning the solos championships, they want the tag titles because they know it's going to be the best thing for them. Kemal is going to be the guy that will be a solos wrestler and I got a couple more under the wings that are close to being ready as well, also aiming to be solos wrestlers too.”

I know he put the book in front of me about the Mount Hood mountain climb and I know he was right that the other tasks were likely way too easy for me to accomplish and this would be the toughest thing ever. I never liked climbing mountains because I know they are going to be hell. Reminded me too much of last year where I had to race though high temperatures and I collapsed after I won the race because it was so hot. I still shook my head.

Ross Barnes: “Getting back on topic, you need to read this book to learn all about the mountain and how high it is to climb. Even a beginner's guide on how to climb the mountain and every piece of equipment you will need for the climb. I'm giving you one of the easiest ones to do to start things off with.”

Konrad Raab: “Is that why you forced me to go to a mountain shop to buy equipment and wear mountain clothes last week?”

Ross Barnes: “Yes because as I said, this will be good for you. It will also be good for your anger as well because you aren't going to take it out on opponents the way you do with wrestling, but you're taking it out on the mountain itself and you be angry at yourself, but it's not at anyone else. Being angry will be good motivation for you to push yourself up the Mount Hood and I also want you to think about winning titles.”

Konrad Raab: “Fine, I'll climb this stupid mountain over the weekend, happy?”

Ross Barnes: “Sarcasm. I want you to actually mean it. Trust me, this is going to be the hardest thing you've ever done in your entire life, but the most rewarding thing you've done as well. I don't see other wrestlers doing this to improve on themselves mentally and to have a winning attitude.”

Even if I complete this stupid mountain challenge, it's not gonna fix the winning attitude I lack. I may have been hit with a reality check, but I still believe that titles aren't be all of being a successful wrestler. I already was shaking because climbing that mountain which seems pretty high already scared me that I don't know what scares me more, the world title or climbing this mountain.

Ross Barnes: “You're afraid clear as day. What is it that makes you so anxious of the whole thing?”

Konrad Raab: “That I could die from altitude sickness.”

He got a map out of his pocket and he showed me the direction to go when we arrive.

Ross Barnes: “That's why we are going to start here. It's perfect for beginners like yourself and if you develop altitude sickness, just climb down and rest for a bit if you can or just rest there.”

Konrad Raab: “I don't know Ross, just too much of a risk for me.”

Ross Barnes: “I understand. I will get a mountaineer guy to help you and assist you climbing the mountain in case that happens. He will know what to do and who to contact. That's why I've said for you to do mountain training in the gym too, to prepare you for this challenge. If you can climb this mountain, we do more mountain climbing.”

Konrad Raab: “OK if this is a test to see I can build on my mentality, you got a deal.”

Ross Barnes: “Good because that mountain climb starts Friday. I got all the equipment you need including ropes. Just read everything in the book and welcome to a start of Konrad's mental training of being an mountaineer. Flights are all booked and we meet here on Thursday to go to Portland, Oregon.”

Ross seems so excited of me doing this mountain climb. I have reservations on my opinions on the whole thing because I literally wasn't confident at all on being able to climb the mountain. Luckily, he was bringing a mountaineer with him and me to help me get used to doing this kind of thing. I didn't even know that Ginny's side of the world had mountain to climb. I mean I've seen it from a far distance, but didn't know you could climb on it.

Anyway, I let Ross go and I was already shaky and nervous about the mountain climb I had to do, but it was a much bigger challenge for me than to win the TV and Underground championships in wrestling. I knew I had to get plenty of rest, but had to practice the mountain climb exercises every day. I headed to bed and went to sleep at eight and I did that consistently every night to prepare for this mountain climb I have to do.

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Facing a pathetic Phoenix. (Online)

“You know Marie, you are beyond laughable to say the least. Oh I have no passion or heart at all for titles. You really are fucking stupid. There's a massive difference between these idiots, screaming like a bunch of children of how starving they are and how much they'd kill to chase stupid title goals because they know their careers aren't going to last long in SCW and people like me who've been here for a long time, but don't need to scream starvation and dying for title opportunities because I'm patient as hell to wait for them. I think that factor is the reason why I'm in this tournament in the first place because I've not been doing that and I don't need to.

Marie Jones is a broken shell of herself. Honestly, what makes you think you're deserving of another Adrenaline title shot? You've already lost to Bree recently at the PPV and you've already lost to a god damn princess. What makes you deserving of another shot, because you're being like everyone else, screaming like a bunch of children of dying and starving to be champions and go for goals? Fuck off. If I was you, I'd be ashamed to lose to princess and I certainly be ashamed as I am to lose to a person who belongs in the tag division in the first place because that loss shouldn't have happened to either one of us. In fact, it should anger you to be better and beat the living shit out of the opponent, not I'm not ashamed of being beaten by other wrestlers, pathetic and weak mentality. My passion and heart comes from anger, but it comes from beating the fuck out of opponents as well as winning titles.

I never understand wrestlers like you feeling like you have to follow a family legacy to deliver your goals of being champions your family never done. What about making your own legacy without family attachment involved? Why do you need to be an Adrenaline or some other title you want to win because the rest of your family didn't win? It's stupid that you feel you have to live up to your family success than wanting to win titles for yourself.

You're a joke of a Phoenix because there's absolutely nothing about you that makes me fear you and your entire comeback. Oh sure, you beat nearly half of the roster, even capturing the TV title but is that supposed to impress me? No it's not because I wish you were that bitch that didn't feel they had to burn bridges and prove that they are Phoenix's in the ring. The changes you made are pathetic, all because you felt it would make you succeed to build bridges and make amends with family for what exactly? You haven't really done anything and your entire run so far has been a fluke, even your TV title run was a fluke. I highly doubt you're a wrestler that will bring violence because you sure as fuck haven't proved any of it. In fact, I go to say you're the worst wrestler in that family alone.

You're so pathetic that you don't even realise that passion and heart for wanting to win titles can only go so far that you and the rest of the screaming children attitude may not even win any titles at all. The reason I haven't challenged World, US or Adrenaline champions specifically is because they haven't shown me they are a threat to me at all. I don't even consider Bree Lancaster being a good champion. She's so boring that the only title defenses I even remember from her are against Simon and you. Simon is the only one that has made things interesting for Bree. I don't care how many titles defenses she's had, like Deanna, she's still boring as fuck. I'm so honoured to be in the Adrenaline tournament to earn a shot against boring Bree for her title because I can't wait to get rid of boring champions like Bree who like everyone else has no personality at all whatsoever and being a champion that will spark up some creativity around here.

That's the difference Marie, I be willing to cause Bree Lancaster all sorts of hell and I make it more than just the Adrenaline title, I make it fucking personal and being god damn creative of putting her in hardcore or cage type matches. Because the rest of you, you'd only face Bree because of her being champion. I will risk everything to piss off Bree and take the title from her that you won't even go to the levels of Marie because you and everyone else will play things too safe. Won't break the rules or anything to win. That's why I'm in this match also.

I will force Bree to face me in hardcore barbaric matches because having regular matches, you might as well do amateur wrestling if you want to play by the rules. I won't be because I'm not a boring wrestler and I refuse to fall to peer pressure of me being forced to change and be the same as everyone else. See, I can be passionate about being an Adrenaline Champion and do everything it takes to destroy everyone in this tournament to do so, but I've been patient about it. But you will be beaten and broken because your a complete failure of being able to beat Bree, you're the most undeserving wrestler in this match and I have no problems proving that in the match on Thursday night.

You're already fucked Marie Jones and there'll be nothing you can do to stop me because I'll be reckless and brutal because that's the way I will do wrestling and forever will because I'm not changing for anybody, not even if Ginny tells me to because the guy you praised you want me to turn into, I was pretending to say those things and said them because to maintain my spot in the business. But I don't need to and you'll be destroyed and pinned for the three count because you not better than me, I'm miles better than you Marie."