Casterillo vs. Konrad Raab

[Konrad Raab]

How to cope with the brutal beatings from his past/Masks experimentation. Las Vegas, Nevada. Friday 30th August (Off-Camera) 

Konrad's sitting in the waiting room, already dressed in his white overalls as he came early for the appointment in Alliance Mental Health Specialists. As usual, he's biting his nails, shaking his whole body rapidly as he has his head between his legs, having his head buried under his arms due to the news he received a week ago. Konrad hasn't coped with the news very well, still unknown when Drexel's going to hunt his family down, including his wife which he takes everywhere with him now.

His heads are wet because of him crying in fear not just because of the Drexel's quest of killing his family stuff, but also fear of being in a mental hospital. It still was tough for Konrad to overcome his fears of being in the mental hospital because of the fear of someone coming out to attack him, but he was safe in the waiting room. Eventually, the wait comes to an end as the door opened, and someone shouted out.

Some doctor: "Mr Konrad Raab."

Konrad removed his face and pulled himself up from the chair as he rubs his hands on his overalls, trying to remove the tears from his face as he picks up the carrier bag with his masks inside and walks like he had stiff legs with his knees locking. Although the left knee has been bothering Konrad with the match he had on Monday, it was due to his fear. 

Konrad was directed to Doctor Schneider as he walks in the room, visibly shaken as there was a cup of water already provided for him. He takes a seat which this time was a cream coloured wall with some equipment around with cupboards and draws with a sink. Schneider got Konrad's documents out and reads through what they discussed last time. When he does, he looks at Konrad and speaks.

Doctor Schneider: "I know it was tough on you the last time, but you need to calm down."

Konrad Raab: "Tell me how?"

Doctor Schneider: "If you relax, I will tell you, but you got to calm down."

Konrad shook his head, not knowing where to look, taking shaky breaths, pressing a fist to his mouth before he closes his eyes, still taking shaky breaths as he again asks the question.

Konrad Raab: "Well, how do I?"

Doctor Schneider: "You need to benefit yourself as a better person than your father has been. We said this to you now because I was ready to tell you with your mum's permission, without feeling bad to hide it from you. When you were younger, you weren't able to cope with it. You were very insecure and hated yourself. I know it's never easy to be a victim of psychical and mental abuse, but your father's gone, and there's nothing you can do to get that childhood back, but giving your children a time to remember when they grow up to be adults, so they have childhood memories with you, you dream of is the way forward."

Konrad Raab: "Still doesn't answer how I can get over it."

Doctor Schneider: "You stand your ground with every cost with anybody and me speaking to you helps, but you need to cry and be alone at times to gather yourself to overcome it."

Konrad Raab: "No."

Konrad shouts so loud that he almost burst Schneider's eardrum as Konrad places his head under his arms, being unable to cope with his past life, even didn't want to talk about it anymore. Everything Konrad says and does, Schneider writes everything. Schneider knows why Konrad told that as he responds.

Doctor Schneider: "I know the situation of Drexel out on the hunt to find you is why you don't want to be on your own, especially without your wife, but there are times you have to. Also, make sure each one of your kids learns how to fight. You don't want them to get bullied every single day because of you being too god damn nice. Fizz tells me you've never beaten your kids so already; you're a better man your dad was."

Konrad Raab: "I never want my kids to experience the hell I went through with my father. Does going over the top with alcohol have a part to play with my life because of my dad?"

Doctor Schneider: "Yes, but you used alcohol to remove the pain of your dad beating you. Now, you've found a solution to your problems, being a professional wrestler. It's far better than getting yourself drunk every night. You learn to fight and defend yourself not just in the ring but out of it as well."

Konrad Raab: "I can't deny I wrestle partly because I wanted to defend myself. Was sick of being in fights and get thrown around like a doll. That's why my father sent me to the army for a year; he didn't want me to defend myself like he kept saying, my father wanted me to suffer because he hated me. He kept saying be a fucking man instead of a woman."

It was clear that Konrad somewhat remembers about his life of those words of being a man, not a lady as he looks through all of Konrad's old notes of his visits to the doctor and finds something that was written years ago about those words. Schneider nods at Konrad who's still visibility shaken, but a different kind of show as Konrad clinches his teeth, knowing there's nothing he can do, more now his father's dead.

Doctor Schneider: "It's in the notes that your mother said that. Your mother tried to do everything she could to stop you from being beaten, but she wasn't able to. Since your father is dead, while you can't do anything now, you can do everything to make sure you won't be doing anything like your dad."

Konrad Raab: "I never want to do anything he did to me on my children. I want to be a father my kids will see me protect them and teach them the rights and the wrongs of the world. I find it easier to be nice than being nasty and vile to the world."

Doctor Schneider: "Remember Konrad, you do have an evil side to you, even I do, like when I said I'd hidden the documents from you."

Konrad Raab: "My wife tells me all the time I always want to make people happy instead of being honest. But I don't want to be a piece of shit."

Doctor Schneider: "It's because you want to forget your past and it's not helped you at all, let's be honest here. I mentioned last week as my thoughts on that, but it was also because you didn't know what happened in your life. Now you do. However, we'll talk more about that if you want next week. For now, lay your masks on the table."

Schneider wrote everything down on what Konrad said and done in the room as there's a lot to write down on what he's said and Konrad got out the three masks out of his bag to lay on the table. Because Schneider never saw the masks before, he took a picture of them on his phone which he'll print out after the session has finished. Schneider sees Konrad pinching his skin, not looking up for a long while. When Konrad realises Schneider wasn't speaking and sitting there, he looks up at him as he eventually responds.

Doctor Schneider: "Let's start with something easy, The Iceman one."

Konrad stands up as he drinks another cup of water before he picks up The Iceman mask. When he puts it on, he already clinches his fist like Konrad's ready to fight, and the mental motion was Konrad was a lot more confident, and immediately, Schneider writes down, and Konrad realises his fist, and Konrad responds to what he sees.

Doctor Schneider: "Apart from feeling confident and ready to fight, there's not a lot of change there. It seems like it's the real you, from your body language."

Konrad Raab: "Because this mask although doesn't change me, but it helps me fight and defend myself. Without it, I'm a piece of garbage. I respect anyone's achievements, and I wrestle fair and square without cheating or using violence."

Doctor Schneider: "That's the attitude you usually have. Although because you're too kind at times, it can make you a pushover because you don't get angry with this mask at all. Now, I need to see you wear The Black Ice mask."

Konrad Raab: "I don't want to."

Doctor Schneider: "For me to understand you better and to help you, you have to. Please, let me see you be The Black Ice."

Konrad sighs, he didn't want to put it on as he wanted to bury it deep into the ground, but Konrad couldn't as Doctor Schneider writes down what he witnesses with The Iceman mask as Konrad gulps at it before Konrad crouches down on the floor and he shouts leave me alone. It left Schneider getting confused on what Konrad shouted as Schneider asks.

Doctor Schneider: "You the one who wanted the help, not me."

Konrad Raab: "I'm not talking to you, Doctor Schneider."

Doctor Schneider: "I see, does the voice always start like this before you put on The Black Ice mask?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes, all the time."

Konrad breathes heavily, so fast that he screams loud before he gives in to the voice and puts The Black Ice on his face with the changes suddenly happening very fast. Konrad screams in anger a lot, and he says this.

Black Ice Raab: "I want to make someone bleed, causing them to suffer injuries and bash someone's head over violence. Yes, I make every wrestler look like a bunch of kittens in the ring. They suffer from brutal beatings and have bodies broken in half."

Doctor Schneider: "It seems that's where your DID comes in. Yes, I see why I diagnosed you with it years ago. You always spoke like this, and you're completely out of control with your anger with the mask, when someone interrupts you speaking.

There was a mirror where the sink was as Black Ice stands up and walks over to it as he looks in the mirror and he laughs evilly, even he spoke with an intense, psychotic voice which Schneider writes down with the dramatic change in Konrad that he discovers it was the mask controlling him and Black Ice speaks after listening to the voice.

Black Ice Raab: "Yes, master Erik, I will follow your orders to attack my next victim with every intent to hurt them. It feels good to be back to teach Schneider what the real world of pain feels like, making him squeal like a piggy. Yes, I enjoy making anybody suffer, and nobody can stop me. I'm a violent wreaking machine."

Black Ice chases after Schneider who was afraid of Konrad as Schneider puts his hands up and Black Ice head-butts him to the floor, and then he pounds him with hard punches to his face as he drags Schneider up to the wall. He throws him into the wall before Doctor Schneider gets up and says this.

Doctor Schneider: "Now put on your Rainbow Ice mask."

Black Ice shook his head whether it was because he wanted to continue beating the doctor or because the mask is such a strong effect with Konrad's mind that he was unable to. From what Schneider has seen, it was clear to him as a psychologist, it was the second option as he calls for help as he was defenceless and four security guards rushed in, and Black Ice tries to push them away, but he laughs before a security guard twice the size of Black Ice picks him up and drops him to the ground as the security guards held Konrad to the ground, Schneider removes the mask off from his face.

The security guards leave the room, and Konrad shakes and jumps his back right into the wall as he says this.

Konrad Raab: "What happened?"

Doctor Schneider: "Everything you supposed to do."

Konrad Raab: "What?"

Doctor Schneider: "Hm, seems like you don't remember anything after you put The Black Ice mask on. Now I see why you didn't want to. What happened is you talked to the mirror to master Erik and then you went to attack me, laughing and enjoying the beating you put on me. Then I called for security because it was clear you couldn't take it off yourself. I know these things without you saying it to me."

Konrad crotches on the floor, having tears in his eyes that he went to hurt his doctor. It's always been a hard thing for Konrad to forgive himself each time he makes those attacks. Schneider struggles to sit down and writes down everything he experienced with Konrad as The Black Ice experiment wasn't anything he expected.

Doctor Schneider: "That's a dangerous form of anger, Konrad with that mask."

Konrad Raab: "Why do you think I didn't want to? I don't remember anything I say or do with that mask. It controls me and lets me beat someone non-stop. As you discovered, I can't take it off, unless someone psychically takes it from me because the power is so strong with the voice telling me to keep it on and if I remove it, Erik tells me to kill myself. It makes me a horrible person I never want to be."

Doctor Schneider: "It wants you to be your father, to show what he used to be like. OK now you're not wearing the mask, let's see Rainbow Ice mask."

Konrad Raab: "I'm sorry; I can't control myself with Black Ice."

Doctor Schneider: "Don't worry about it, now put on Rainbow Ice."

Konrad nodded as he went to the table and placed the other two masks in the bag before he looks on it. He's reluctant to put it on, but he places it on his face. Konrad didn't seem to change too much, but one thing he said does catch Schneider's attention.

Konrad Raab: "Balance between good and evil is good for the world; being good or evil leads you down to being pushed over or leading you to a bad place. Everyone has good and evil sides of themselves, and that's the success you get in wrestling and life. I won't hesitate to use violence on those who deserve it, but violence will not put on those who are respectful and kind."

Doctor Schneider: "I agree, finally that mask is channelling your brain to say things having to be balanced. I never understood why you say that in your videos, but now it's clear the mask trains you to say that. This is an amazing discovery, something you weren't aware of. Yes, you can be a good and an evil guy, and it's also controlled as well."

Konrad removes the Rainbow Ice mask from his face as he smiles, feeling a lot better than he was ten minutes ago. He takes a seat and remembers what Schneider said, and he says this.

Konrad Raab: "You're saying I should be using this mask entirety of my wrestling career?"

Doctor Schneider: "Yes, although I wouldn't attempt to wear that or the Black Ice one in front of your children though, especially as you said, you still don't know much about the capabilities of what the Rainbow Ice mask does, other than the discovery of it training your brain of having balance of your life. I think it may help you say this to your fellow wrestlers too in the future."

Konrad Raab: "Hm, I didn't think the mask did anything, but saying things like balance in life, that's not usually me so that mask also has an effect on me, but still need to know more about it and maybe help me improve myself as a person in and out of the ring too."

Doctor Schneider: "You're right, it's doing what it's supposed to train your brain to do and the violence thing, that will only be in a controlled manner, although you will get explosive at times, but only when you feel the wrestler deserves it rather than a need like Black Ice does."

Konrad nods, feeling a lot better, especially knowing the Rainbow Ice does pose somewhat of danger, but not as bad as The Black Ice one. Doctor Schneider writes everything he's witnessed so far, even knowing more about the masks, even with Konrad learning a bit, although Doctor Schneider just looked at his watch, Konrad's hour session was meant to be up five minutes ago but overran the time as he says this.

Doctor Schneider: "We're five minutes ahead of time, so I'm going to end this support for today as we've done everything we've needed to talk about and for me to see with those masks. I know it was a hard session, especially the Black Ice mask and the coping with your father's beating situations. I suggest with your nightmares, you keep taking those REM tablets, but my advice is to take them ten minutes before you go to bed, maybe they'll start working once you fall asleep, removing those nightmares from your father attacking you that Fizz tells me. Anyway, the same day next week for discussions, alright?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes, thank you for the discussion as they are helping me learn more about myself."

Konrad drinks the last cup of water as he places the Rainbow Ice mask in the bag, along with the others and carries it before he was taken to the reception to get his clothes. As he receives his clothes, he then was taken to changing rooms by Schneider as he goes back into his office and writes up everything Konrad said and did. Konrad came out with jeans and a white shirt as he got his personal belongings before he leaves the Alliance Mental Health Specialists hospital to get in his car to head on home to Fizz.

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The Iced Rainbow Konrad Raab side: Time to get violent with Casterillo youtube.com shoot. (On-Camera)

"Finally, I'm able to get my hands on someone who's attacked me consistently over the last few shows, someone who has unfinished business with me, Casterillo. Yes, there's no denying he can produce a great match when he's in the mood to. It's a shame he has all this talent in him, yet he doesn't feel titles are essential. The only thing he's claimed to come here to do is hurting opponents.

Welcome to the world of the Iced Rainbow, Casterillo as you're aware that you're a big guy and produces a lot of power, but when you said you weren't done with me, I thought the same because I haven't beaten you. This match with the Underground rules is a big test for me that I don't go and explore, keeping my anger controlled with this mask. It's the side of me you've never faced before, but what has Sasha got to do with any of us?

Because you seem to blame her for everything that's gone on when the only person making these mistakes is you, you're always disrespectful to every wrestler you've met and that you deserve a violent beating because you refuse to have balance in life. I had to learn so much about being good or evil is not good, hence why I'm not aligned with Damien Angel right now.

I'm not going to give you much room to stand up, even if I'm still understanding the Rainbow Ice mask that wants me to be violent, but for a good reason. I also want to make you bleed like a pig because of the cowardly attacks you've done, even during my match against Kelsai. I thought you were a bit of a hypocrite when you said Kelsai was an innocent victim when you attacked her. Why didn't you have the respect to allow me and Kelsai finish our match, having a fair winner, instead of me coming into this match with a DQ win?

Because you were desperate and you have no balance in your life or wrestling, you're only going to go farther back, and I have to say, you've not improved at all since you've been in SCW. Me? I've grown leaps and bounds to put Regan and Alistaire to the test. Also, all of these attacks are because you couldn't get Glory in a match. Also, all of us have our good and evil sides, but I've never seen you show a good side, maybe cos you're afraid of being kind to people and if so, it makes you pathetic.

She has other things to do, and you should've finished business with me, but it's OK because I won't restrict myself, especially with it being an Underground rules-based match to use weapons and mess you up, ultimately, leaving you a blooded pig. I've gotten stronger and better as time goes on because I put in effort one hundred per cent, while the only thing you do is attack people when you lose matches.

You cost yourself the match against Tommy Valentine when you knew you couldn't beat him. Just because you have beaten me the last time, doesn't mean it will be the same result and it won't be because I'm a changed man and I deal with cowards who only focus on being evil. I won't hesitate also to make you squeal when I lock you in a submission because the violence you got from me is only the beginning of it going to get far worse, especially now I can control it and use it when I have to which in this case, I do, teaching you a lesson in respect and showing Sasha respect.

Tomorrow night here in Baltimore, Maryland, you're in for a rude awakening when I destroy you all over the arena, despite a chance of you beating me again, but you have no knowledge of what I'm capable of as the Iced Rainbow, not even I do, but you'll find out when I'll beat you either for the three count or submission with weapons at our disposal doing anything we damn please without any limits restricted on us to have my hand raised as the winner of the match, despite my lack of experience in these sort of matches. We'll brutalise the house down as Casterillo, prepare to be Iceinated by The Iced Rainbow, bitch."