09-08-2018, 03:15 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-08-2018, 03:16 PM by Foreverzerov1.)
-ooc- Heres the first rp as the slightly revamped bianca evans/lexi this was fun but hard as i didnt want her to be as she was i wanted to evolve the character always fun to work with you randy and to team with you wes.
Everything has changed….
Everything is different.
Last i wrote i was a girl in love...obsessed with a cruel god.
I was the girl that was lost...that most people hated for my attitude...my behavior.
I don't really blame them i was a pain in the ass.
But Today I awake a different person than i was before. Yesterday I was Lexi Von Aaron….Gods Bitch. His slave i lived to do Chad’s bidding i lived to be his property and play thing. I’d die for him...So that's what i did.
I wanted to die because Chad Lied to me. He lied to me when he didn't need to he lied to me to hurt me. He lied to me for his entertainment. And he fucked me. He fucked me hard and it hurt more than anything i had experienced...mentally i think maybe getting my head slammed into a pile of thumbtacks may have been better.
But the feeling of that...of fucking it was disgusting the worst thing i had ever been a part of. I still get why people love it so much. Letting someone in you...letting them violently thrust in and out it is sickening. It is the ultimate invasion yet people are so obsessed with it...so enthralled by this act that makes me sick to my stomach.I don't understand how people could enjoy this i don't understand how people could like being invaded in such a way. The closeness...it really is sickening even with someone i cared about someone i was obsessed with him in making him happy. But you can't make Chad...you can't make god happy. You can't because this world around him his creation he hates it all because everything is such a colossal disappointment.
People make me sick to their stomach...Chads general attitude has infected me maybe it's an std? Because i don't just hate the world….SCW (obviously), myself...but him as well. I hate him because he makes me love him makes me care about something in a world i despise.
Lexi pretended to feel the way she did but she wanted to be accepted wanted to have her place in the world no matter what the cost. But now...I have my place. I have my purpose… And It turns out once you find out what you are suppose to do with your life. What you're real meaning is...it could just kind of suck.
This is what i always wanted not just to be a Von Aaron. Not just to be the spoiled rich daddys girl. I am something else. I am someone else now….He killed who he was when he fucked me and told me the truth. He killed the girl that Adored him and would do anything for him. He might as well have taken a letter opener and sliced my throat.
It's not like i was the happiest person in the world...But I had hope...i had goals...i wanted to be something. But What Chad has taught me is how meaningless everything is how. Pointless existence is. That's why I tried to kill myself. Because i felt like i had lived my purpose.
My virginity was such a part of who i was i was devastated when i “thought” i lost it. Only to have the man i love take it from me after slut shaming me for months. It would seem pointless just a long game of sadism if you didn't know Chad. He played the long game with me. He knew what this would do...or knew in a way what it would do. He knew it would rock my world he knew that it would effect me in a profound way,.
The first day after i was in a haze i tried having a shower to scrub away the filth that seemed to have covered me. This feeling of being dirty...i tried to clean myself but i still felt dirty...i scrubbed and scrubbed but still i felt the same that i was just another whore like everyone else. Before i was more than them...but now i was just like them. Just like everyone else...and it sickened me.
But why...it was Chad i wanted it to...i wanted him to cleanse me...but now i realize everything i did all the dirty disgusting things i allowed him to do...i wasn’t the whore he said i was...he made me his personal virgin whore. Part of me doesn't even get why i am so mad. I am his now...i belonged to him but in those moments after i just wanted it to stop...So i tried to hang myself.
I felt like everywhere i looked going forward was hopeless being Chads toy….that disgusted me. Being without him alone on my own trying to piece some sort of life together that wasn't something i wanted either. I took one of chads belts and tied it to a light fixture hanging from the ceiling in the bedroom. And then stepped off the bed. Hanging yourself it hurts choking losing the air trying to breathe even when you are trying to kill yourself...It's not graceful or romantic. And a light fixture falling on top of you and a light bulb breaking against the back of your head hurts like a son of a bitch. Chad heard this of course.
“What the hell” He said looking at me as i coughed and was throwing up a little onto the floor.
I look up at him with anger i wanted it to be over. I just wanted this stupid existence to end.
“Did you seriously just try to kill yourself?” He says pulling me up i was still dazed from being hit in the head with the light fixture with it gave in and it fell on the back of my head.
“Why do you care...you had your fun” I say i wouldn't say something like this before...i would have been an obedient little dog. I would have begged him to do something to gain his favor to amuse him.
Chad looks at me with a surprised expression “So what you’ve given up that's it?”
“Isn't that what you wanted to break me. To shatter me into pieces and watch me fall apart mission accomplished. I feel completely disgusting...i look at myself and i feel sick to my stomach. You made a fool of me for all these months..”
“But you wanted it all along you wanted to be mine and now you are ashamed of what you’ve become you feel hurt what because i lied about something that by everything you’ve been saying for about a year would mean i’d changed everything for the better but now you are playing the victim acting like some pathetic emo girl whose been violated...i thought you were better than this. “ Chad says with disappointment.
I say nothing looking down ashamed of myself.
“I could have let you die that first night...I could have even pushed you off that roof. “
“I wish you had” I say softly.
Chad sternly walks up to me and Slaps me across the face “Shut the fuck up. This is not who you are...If this is who you want to be than go ahead die. “
“I hate you” I say looking up at him in a whisper.
“What was that” He says grabbing a hold of my arms his fingers pushing into the meat of my arms.
“I hate you” I say louder.
“What” he says pinching into my arms so it was hurting.
“I hate you!” I say even louder in almost a shout.
“What!?! because i fucked you!?! You dumb slut you asked for it you begged for it. “
“I FUCKING HATE YOU!” I scream in his face.
“Why why do you hate me? You said you loved me days ago and now you hate me!?” He screams back at me flakes of spit hit me in the face.
“You lied to me you saved me! And you you...you fucking lied to me! You did the most incredible thing for me. You were my fucking hero and you lied about it and said i was raped!” I scream at him as the tears roll down my face.
“So what? “ Chad says with a slight smirk he was enjoying this.
“You made me feel like nothing. You slut shamed me when you knew you were the only man that has ever touched me in that way. “
“So what i messed with you… why does that matter.”
He says almost annoyed as he lets go of me.
“You did the most incredible thing anyone has ever done for me… and the worst at the same time. And i hate you so much for it...but at the same time i love you more than anything in my life and that somehow...makes me hate myself.”
“Welcome to my world.” Chad says with a shrug sitting back in his chair looking like a king almost.
“You could have had me that night...instead...you played with me toyed me. “
“You are a incredibly easy person to manipulate. You were my property within an hour of meeting me.” Chad says
“I wanted to be better….i was at rock bottom...I”
“Don't act like you got nothing out of this deal here. You got to live in my house...you got to have some fun. You got to even be a champion for the first time in your career. I gave you everything i said i would and more.” Chad says looking at me than away he looked at me than away.
“Than why does it just feel so awful i always wanted to be something to someone. But this...this feels so disgusting” I say looking down in disgust.
“Welcome to being human. You can get whatever you want. You can achieve your goals and still feel like shit after. “
“You are such a bastard.” i say with a snarl.
“You can leave any time.”
I grit my teeth i had nothing but Chad he had me discard my family, my friends the life i had...or the sad excuse one would call a life.
“Well?” He asks looking to the door.
He was in control he was always in control. I was sick of that sick of being his pawn...this was my life i loved a god and hated him both more than anything.I submitted...i didn't know what else to do in that moment i went and sat down on his lap he put his arm around me sending a chill down my spine he removed the belt from my neck.
“Go get cleaned up”
That was that...I stood up to Chad only to Submit to him….i hated it and the only person i hated more than Chad was myself. Than...he fucked me like the whore i am. He drilled into my insides during it i wish he had chosen to beat me instead of stick his dick into me. But he knows i like being hit...or i did...i am not sure i liked anything at that point. After he came and passed out i looked at his...cum...dripping from me looking like a crushed twinkie almost.It's...so disgusting i thought to myself I am such a disgusting pig whore…But this was the life i choose being owned by a god is better than being alone isn't it? When i slept...i had nightmares of him fucking me...of being held down and violated of being so weak. I wanted to be strong all I wanted was to be strong.
I didn't stop trying to kill myself. No...because i could leave any time but i couldn't be without Chad. But the concept of being with him disgusted me as much as i couldn't be without him. I despised my existence i hated being his puppet. Alot of them more maybe cries for attention or cries just to try to escape this existence. Because i know the truth...i was born to be with him. I can't move on...i can't just find someone else. Because he is the only one...but...it just feels so awful…
I started feeling sick...more and more… it was really starting to get to me in that i would puke after getting up and i wasn't even hungover. Maybe all the drugs were taking its toll. I was laying in the bath tub just thinking how much i hated...everything. I set my phone to play everytime by Britney spears...it really seems to be an anthem to kill yourself to. I did my makeup i wanted to look beautiful for him when he found me. I wanted to look like what he wanted me to i made sure i was perfect...i wanted to hurt him...i wanted him to lose something to care for something.
I looked my naked body...and whispered “Whore” popped a handful of sleeping pills and then stepped into the bathtub. I slid slowly into the water. Maybe before it was a game just the only exit i could think of. But than...i wanted to die. I hated that even my dreams i couldn't be safe from him. He was there...fucking me there...he was there inside of me. I wanted to die not just to get out but to hurt him to hurt Chad cause if he felt for me a fraction of what i felt for him. He would be hurt by this hurt by me being dead. At the very least he’d have to fuck Sariel instead. I drifted to sleep sinking into the water.
I fall asleep…. I dream of white….I see him he smiles at me. I reach out and he takes my hand…”Don't go”....”Bye” i whisper. Than i was happy with that being the end. I was happy cause that was the Chad i wanted one that loved me...one that needed me...one that didn't exist.
I hear voices…
“You're friend got her just in time...But she should be fine...Did she tell you?”
I see chad and someone i don't recognize it looks like a doctor. I try to reach for him but i can't move. I see chads expression his eyes go wide...and i drift off again. I dream that chad is with me that he is brushing my hair that he is holding my hand. I was such a stupid girl.
I finally wake up my eyes fluttering open to see Chad sitting next to me with an unimpressed expression
“You're awake...so is this your thing now suicide...how unoriginal” Chad says in an annoyed tone.
“Chad” i whisper my throat feels dry i look around i am in a room in the house not chads room...or mine im in a bed strapped in i see an iv attached to me.
“You tried to off yourself...idiot.”
I say nothing. I thought i had been successful till that moment i had thought i was dead through the haze of cloudy memories of chad...the doctor.. The memories from my mind drifting in and out of consciousness.
I had to agree to not kill myself….Chad insisted on it and he knew if i was lying i spent a week in bed. If i wanted to spend the rest of my life strapped to this bed i had to give up again. Than Chad came into the room. I agreed….to not kill myself. So I became the ideal spouse i cleaned for Chad...I didn't think i'd do that for anyone… I cooked for him...But i had a new goal...i wanted to kill Chad. I despised him i despised him for keeping me alive...I despised him fucking me every night...i wouldn't even say anything about because i wasn't in the mood because i was never in the mood. But his dick would always end the day inside me…i hated it so much.But i took it...I stopped kissing him...i don't know when but i wasn't even sure i loved him.
I earned his trust enough to be able to go out on my own. I was out shopping and i went to the pharmacy to pick up my medication. I looked over..them and noticed i didn't have any birth control. I asked if that was a mistake and they said my doctor had cancelled it. It took me a few moments to connect a memory from after my little adventure in the bathtub.
“That bastard.”
I quickly ran down the aisle and grabbed a pregnancy test and tossed some money at the girl at the till. And rushed to the bathroom….And took the test in a panic...i stared at the test….it was positive….that fucking bastard got me Pregnant and he knew it. I was connecting more and more dots...vitamins…. He was giving me in the morning… he stopped hitting me. He fucking knew. I couldn't believe it. What was he doing i didn't want kids i never wanted to torture my body i never wanted to push a child out of my cunt.That bastard figured out a new.
I’m tempted to drive the car into the house...but I don't i enter the house i want blood...I don't just want to kill him so i can off myself...I want him dead for infecting my body. I drop any fakeness any of the old Submissive lexi...This was probably the moment i became who i am now.
He looks at me and smiles is he happy to see me. Of course he is i am his living fucking baby carriage. I am about to unleash hell on god himself when he presents me with a airplane ticket...To paris. That bastard…
I’m planning my move trying to figure out Chads Game...Trying to figure out what is his next big idea to torture me. But there's nothing it is beautiful. He treats me like a queen and i am waiting for him to strip me and fuck me in the ass. I am waiting for him to shove his dick in my mouth in the elevator of the hilton hotel and make me choke on his cum. But he doesn't he instead holds my hand he instead gives me what i wanted this whole time. Is this what couples do...Well aside from going to an underground fight club...most couples don't do that but we do i wanted to see one of these for years a fight to the death. Just people beating each other till nothing's left...what was Chads game. Was he trying to protect his spawn did he know i know? I loved seeing these people fight almost in the manner i did for a living but here it was till one of them was near death or dead. It was thrilling I even got excited… Which than i thought was when Chad would decide it was time to infest me again.
It was like a movie...I think if it were made into a movie i’d be played by the bitch from the notebook maybe. That girl from princess diaries...Chad by the guy from game of thrones that got his hand chopped off or maybe that guy from blade...back than. We go up to the top of the eiffel tower. It's the perfect romantic moment...so know chad this is when he sticks something in my ass. But he doesn't. I am cautious this would be the moment...when chad does something when he tortures me so i keep an arm's length away.
“I hate so much Lexi”He says looking away from me at the beautiful paris skyline.
I hate you ...i hate this thing inside of me i think to myself.
“My whole life i’ve always been looking at things in this way that is so fueled by hate.”He says not looking at me.
I say nothing...i touch my stomach but not so much to notify him i know. Even with him not looking i don't want him to know that for once i have an advantage over him.
“I don't get it...You...This girl this ignorant selfish fucking girl.”
He says still looking away looking at something in front of him maybe in his hand.
“I don't get why i care about you….I don't get why you hold any value to me”
Because I’m your fuck toy...because i am carrying you're disgusting spawn? I think to myself.
“But you're not just that...you are mean...and spiteful. Probably more driven than i have been in my entire life. “
I have zero idea what he’s getting at here. I assume some kind of sex thing...or maybe he’s going to break my jaw here on the eiffel tower.
“You are such a fucking idiot.And I have done so many horrible things to you...And what have you done to me...love me...worship me...devote yourself to me...You.”
Chad shakes his head “Fuck”
I am silent i can't say anything not out of respect just i can't think of anything to say that isn't screaming how dare you knock me up. How dare you infest me you bastard the one thing i never wanted from you and you do it.
“Alexis loved me to...But not in the way you did… And she was probably a lot smarter than you just leaving me. But you...you aren't going to leave me are you. “
“No”I whisper back.
“Well you tried to kill yourself but i guess that's on me for encouraging it daring you to do it half the time. “ He says.
I can't come up with anything to say back to him.
“But that...I don't know what i'd do without you now.”He says
What is he getting at?
“I don't get it most times why I even tolerate you there are moments I just despise you. There are moments where i hear your voice and it is like a drill right into my temple.”
“But than there are these things about you….damnit...God you are such a smug fucking bitch. Those eyes...god you just look so fucking full of yourself i just want to shove my cock down your throat and make you choke on it.”
“Is that suppose to be a compliment?” I ask tilting my head a little to the side.
“You are a bitch…”
“Yea...so” i respond
“This presence you have...it just gets me...I don't know. You are so bloodthirsty so selfish so greedy and conceited yet...to me you submit...i don't get it. For awhile I would have said when you say “I love you” You mean it but you mean it in a different way than how anyone else has said it to me.”Chad says his fingers moving through his hair.
“At first it was all a game you were this crazy girl that i thought i could mess around with… and make my boring ass life a little more interesting. But i could never predict what would have happened...not alexis leaving i was sure she'd get pissed off and leave eventually that was kind of part of the plan. But the part where...you...you.”
“I what? What did i do?” I ask
“You made me care about you...you fucking bitch.”
“I’m Chad Evans I am not suppose to care about anything i am fucking god why should i care about you. A mid level...at best Scw wrestler...you're not special.”
“Uh thanks.”
“No i thought you weren't you were something to pass the time to entertain me for a moment. But then you just being...you. You went and fucked things up.” He says in an annoyed tone.
I watch him in silence.
“You changed things in ways they weren't supposed to change.” Chad continues.
“Uh sorry?”
“You..Ok fuck it...It's been bothering me for weeks this isn't something i wanted to feel especially for you of all people. But...You fucking bitch i can't believe you fucking did this to me.”Chad says gripping the railing
“What Chadh what did i do to you?” I ask
“You made me love you. You bitch.”
I am surprised by this shocked my eyes go wide. Chad Turns reaching into his pocket for something. As he turns he sees me standing on the railing across from him looking down at him. One misstep than i become the prettiest splash of blood in all of paris.
“Lexi…”
“Yes Chad...you were saying” I say tilting my head slowly walking along the rail.
“Get down” He says looking at me with...was that concern.
“”No but go on...what were you saying you love me...or is it more...what's in me” I say letting it be known i knew what he put into me.
“Lexi calm down i was going to tell you.” Chad says holding out his hands to me.
“What when i was 6 months pregnant wondering why i was getting fat?!!” I say taking another step.
“Lexi get down...please”
“What for the spawn you have infested me with” I say angrily
“No forget about that...it's not because of a fucking kid…”Chad says.
“Hard to forget about something fucking growing inside of me. I gave up everything for you my family my friends...my virginity...and that all wasn't enough you had to do this to me you son of a bitch! “ I says slipping for a split second but quickly regaining my footing.
“Lexi please calm down we can talk this out.”
“We are talking Chad.” I say as i lift my leg high up ballerina style.
“Fuck it…” Chad reaches into his pocket pulling out a box he goes down to one knee
“Lexi will you marry me.”
“What the fuck.”I say stumbling Chad moves quickly snatching me by the hair and pulling me towards him i let out a scream.
“What the shit was that” I say looking at him shocked pushing away from him.
“You win Lexi...Marry me.” This game we were playing how did i win how could i possibly win.
“Wha”
“Do i even have a choice?” I ask
“You arent my property any more...ok Whatever…”Chad says
“What to protect you're fucking kid.”I ask
“No I want to be with you...I didn't want another kid the one i have is annoying enough as is. But with you...i warmed up to the idea.”
“Ok…” I say in a grumble.
“Is that you're answer.
“I’m not ok...with the fucking kid. But yes...I will Ok I’ll marry you.”
“You aren't just saying this to try to kill yourself again?” Chad asks.
“No...I won like you said” I say wrapping my arms around his neck.
“You bitch.” He says kissing me back….
So that's how Chad Asked me to Marry him. Now obviously that isn't the end of the story. We had a wedding on short notice really. I even made up with my friends in money in the bank so they could be my bridesmaids. The Wedding was great...for a short notice deal...I of course gave Chad a surprise of my own. A new hairstyle...and one more...surprise just to show God...That we were now playing a whole new game. And Me I wasn't Lexi Von Aaron Gods Bitch anymore….I am now Bianca Evans...Gods Bitch...Wife.
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I “Left” Scw months ago. By left i let my contract expire but really that wasn't my choice it was Chads choice and I wanted to be with him. He didn't care about the Tag titles losing them meant nothing to him. In Fact he seemed to enjoy they that from me. I loved being a champion I loved flaunting it i loved showing off i loved disrespecting conventions getting in peoples faces. And proudly stating I was “Gods Bitch” And we were the best thing to happen to the tag division ever...I was trying to make the division more. Idiot. I was trying to make it on equal ground to the singles title. I was wrong. The Tag division is the ultimate scarlet letter pretty much a id card to being a second class citizen.
The purpose of the Tag titles goes against everything this business especially SCW stands for. SCW is all about serving yourself. Doing whatever you can for yourself not caring who's back you stab.
I understand now how utterly pointless it all is. And than when someone tries to bring these titles any semblance. They are immediately dragged back into the mud and the pits of obscurity. To once again be the stepping stone to “something more”. It's depressing just thinking about the time and planning i put into making those things matter that i even thought that the tag team titles could main event anything more than a breakdown. It was idiotic the dreams of a stupid little girl.
I’ve been training since I told my husband that I’d be returning to wrestling. It's funny just saying that not just the fact i am coming back that i knew was coming. But telling Chad anything I didn't ask him. I didn't discuss it with him. I did it on my own...I may be his wife...And I will be his till i die. But at the same time I am my own woman...Lexi Von Aaron was his property. She was his toy his slut that he used as he pleased.
I take the scissors in my hand...Chad loved my hair loved how it was so long going down to nearly my ass...he loved to grab a hand full of it while he fucked me. He liked the leverage he liked to tug it to pull it like a dog's leash….Snip snip…
I am not his dog anymore...I am his wife.
It's strange how everything's changed. The events of my life that led to here and now. I don't feel like i am the same person i was before i got this ring. It's just a loop of gold with a large diamond...it's expensive but it in no way changed the person i am. But this bond...i have made this silly little vow. Has changed me…
My Mother always called me Lexi….but my father named me Bianca. When I signed the marriage Certificate I signed it with my birth name...And now my husbands...no my last name…
Bianca Evans.
I Looked at the name….And I realized that was who I am. The girl Lexi was dead the woman Bianca was now who stood in her place. In these last few months i changed so much it feels like i was a different person before...i know it sounds stupid. But This is my husbands gift to me… a rebirth. A chance to become a woman...no something more.
I look at the desk and I see it next to our wedding picture. A picture of Chad with Explicit Content...And more importantly Katie Steward. This is where it began this moment where i knew what i wanted to do now. With this new name this new life. I am ready to take my next step...into my career...my life...it's time to take...everything.
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We open with a shot of Bianca Evans(Formerly Lexi Von Aaron) She is wearing a long sleeved black silk shirt her and a pair of black leggings sitting on a white couch. As the scene opens she looks away out the window behind her you can see the arena where Apocalypse will be taking place in a few days.
Interviewer: Lexi-
Bianca turns her head quick at this.
Bianca: That's not my name.
Interviewer: But that's what the audience knows you as.
Bianca: Fuck the audience. I am not the same person as Lexi Von Aaron she was a little girl that dreamed of being something. I don't dream of anything I don't sit around hoping for things to happen if there is something I want I take it. I don't wait in line. I don't be patient no…
Bianca shakes her head
Bianca: If I want something i am going to take it. If i want a title i am going to go out there and say i want it. But i don't need a title to be relevant i am something better than the champion of this...horrible place. I am god's bitch...wife. And that just puts me on a level above everyone else.
Interviewer:So what is it about Katie Steward that makes her now the center of your attention.
Bianca: What about Katie Steward makes her the center of my attention? What a stupid question. Katie Steward is the bar that all women in SCW look at and want to meet she is the reasons everyone of us is here if you are a female wrestler. If there was no Katie Steward there would be no Sienna Swann no Kennedy Street no Syren and Certainly no Bianca Evans. She was the first woman to not only main event an SCW ppv but also the first to do it against a man. She is the longest standing member of this roster. You talk about people like Savior, Wheeler, Ace, Kelcey Wallace, Syren etc being pillars of scw. Katie Steward is the one pillar that has stood her the longest and I am here because of her. I know that i appreciate what she has given to me and this industry. I’m not one of those...oh i love this sport. I do it for the money and it's what i do best in life. But I do have respect for a few things and that is Katie Steward.
Interviewer: But why not just ask her if you wanted to team with her why attack her daughters?
Bianca: I wanted her attention I wanted her to know i was back. You see Katie has a tendency to lose focus she a little off the rails at times. I want the best Katie Steward i want her to be recognized as the best. Not on the preshow of rise to greatness that isn't right...that isn't cool. That is a slap in the face that one of the greatest stars in SCW history wasn't even on the main card. That is wrong that is something that i can't tolerate. So I had this little rematch clause in my pocket We were never beaten for the titles. My husband and I. We lost by dq and in any other match the titles don't change on a dq. But this is less about that and more about Katie Steward.
Interviewer: That does bring up the point why Katie? And not Chad you're husband and partner.
Bianca: I have Chad’s full support in this. I wouldn't go and do things behind his back. Katie Steward is the greatest female competitor in SCW history. And it disgusts me that people like that Cow...that Celestial Cow Amy Chastaine are Supreme Champion and she isn't. So i am here to fix history to repair scw. And make Katie Steward a supreme Champion. And I may be wrong but the first to not only hold every title the boys can win but the Women's title as well. I am going to be a part of history at apocalypse. Because my name will be in there. My goal i will tell you right now...Is to make it into the hall of fame. I want to be like Katie Steward i want to be one of those people that changed this company that made people look at things differently. This isn't a momentary gang thing this is just one piece of a larger puzzle that lands me right next to Katie Steward among the greats in this company.
Bianca: See I’m not a good person. I know that I am not a noble person I am not doing this out of charity. Yes I respect Katie but I am doing this for myself to take another step forward. For a year Chad and I were the best part of this company...We were the reason people tuned in. We beat the very best and we were never put in our place we were the bad guys everyone hated and i haven't learned any grand lesson other than...I am STILL better than everyone else in this company. I come back and i am the most important part of the show. People were automatically asking what is she doing? What is her game? Who is her target? I do everything i do for a reason like i said one piece in the bigger puzzle that is my career. And to create that puzzle i am going to create moments...Like Katie Steward becoming Supreme Champion. By taking those tag titles...this isn't an act of kindness in any way i am doing this for me. I am doing this so I can be in the spotlight. Katie Steward may be the one that will be supreme Champion but this is about me.
Interviewer: How is this about you? This really doesn't make sense you’ve always been selfish is this a new side of you we haven't seen before.
Bianca: Like I said i do everything for a purpose and a reason. And does Katie deserve this opportunity. Yes she does definitely. But I’m not some saint doing it out of the kindness of my heart. I mean yes i look heavenly and i am god's wife...so now that i think about it maybe i am a saint. I’ll work that out later. The point is i'm not about charity and yes my goal is to help out a legend achieve some thing she both deserves and has eluded her for some time. But it's not going to be without a cost. Because nothing in life is free nothing is easy and everything has a cost.
Interviewer:What do you mean by that.
Bianca: You...Scw, Lohan Country and Even Katie Steward will see in time. But i am always about the bigger picture i am ALWAYS about how my action will serve me. And will lead me to my goals. Lohan Country are Elite talent don't think I’m under estimating them. People thought of Lexi Von Aaron as an idiot they almost consistently underestimated me,. They almost always thought i made my way to the arena on a short bus.And I always used that to my advantage because i may not be “book smart” but that really means nothing in SCW. It doesn't matter if you're background is a harvard graduate or a janitor. It doesn't mean shit when you are in that ring. It doesn't matter if you are genius or can't read a word. If you can hit someone in the face hard enough. So Lohan country can go and think i am a idiot or some sort of simpleton. Whatever they can think of me however they'd like. It really makes no difference to me it really doesn't matter what they think because every misconception is another advantage for me. Every moment of overconfidence is another i can steal. Lohan country are going to think they have the advantage of being sisters the advantage of teaming together and knowing each other better than Katie and i. We won't ever have that bond Lohan Country has. We won't ever know each other the way Dawn and Abigail. And I wouldn't want that either.
Interviewer: Do you believe that the skills you and Katie posses be enough to beat a team that is so insync as Lohan Country?
Bianca: We don't need to work together like Lohan Country. We do not need to have the bond that lohan country has. We don't need to be as close as sister or whatever. Because as much as the bond of sisters. It can be just as much a weakness as it is a strength as hard as they may want to fight for each other. They also care about each other you could even say they'd die for each other and that is a weakness. Because I may respect Katie but I won't die for her i wont burn in flames for her and I won't let her well being get in the way of what i want. I won't let it get in the way of my goals If Katie were to stand in the way of my goals my reaction will be anything but…”sisterly”. But that is the advantage we have because That makes what needs to be done easier.
Interviewer: What needs to be done you're motives are so...vague what is it you are after.
Bianca: My Goal is to ensure a goddess takes her rightful place. By any means necessary. When i first one those titles i went to war. With two former world champions. I have never even had a world title shot. I had never even won a title in this company. I doubt any one thought we could pull it off. They were beloved by all “Bae”
She says the word with complete and utter disgust.
Bianca: Really the most disgusting word in the history of the spoken word. I beat two of the best women in SCW history not just slipping away with the win. But indisputeable fashion we beat them. And the validation i felt was amazing. I beat the woman I looked up to getting into this business. I beat Kennedy Street the woman i based so much of my early career on. My brother once managed her to the SCW title. And when i faced her that first time almost two years ago on Breakdown i remember Ethan telling me i’d never be on her level. That i didn't deserve to be in the same ring as her. That it was my honor to be used pretty much like an enhancement talent against her. For too long I allowed others words to control me. I let what the critics say about me consume me. They said i had talent they said that i could work a good match. But i just was missing something. I was destined to be one of those people that whenever it was a big match i would choke...I would fall apart...title shots...matches with big stars...i just couldn't keep it together. I always succumbed to my nerves despite any level of confidence i may have had in there.My weakness was always that… not my skill I look at the others in SCW. The best of the best the very elite of this industry and i know i am better than they are. I knew than i was better and i even said i was but i didn't believe it. I had these moments of doubt and that's what would get me. Thinking through the eyes of a former fan “i am so lucky to be here” I would just get these moments where my focus would drift and bang…. Beaten. I’d slip up and leave an opening and eat an opponent's finish or something. The ignorance of the child i know i have all the tools to become one of the greatest in this company's history. And till that match against Bae deep down everyone believed i was just going to be a name on the card. But on that night i tasted immortality...I tasted what it was like to walk with greatness. I tasted what it was like to be one of the best when i beat one of the best. And while my husband the win meant little to him...he’d been there before he’d won big matches before this wasn't some incredible transcendent experience for him because he has been elite in scw since day one. Since longer than everyone in that longer room with very few exceptions. He shrugged off the win barely even cared allowed some idiot to set the title on fire. Me i cherished it...i never had a title before that moment i couldn't even with a woman's title in developmental. Chad he didn't care about being a champion because he didn't need it. Chad could never hold another title and he could show up on any night and main event the next show. He is god...my husband is god. And i want to be on his level hows that for motivation.
Interviewer: Speaking of Chad where is he?
Bianca: Chad is where he needs to be. This is my time this is my time to become the person i need to be. I have to do things by myself before you say it going for the tag titles with Katie Steward is part of the big picture. It is like i said about making history being a part of a moment that no one will ever forget. It will be on the highlight reels they show at the beginning of shows for years to come this is history and i will be making it. Chad was a part of Explicit Content with Katie she has always been one of the few people Chad has a soft spot for. Be it her connection to his son or the numerous times they have teamed together throughout the years. The connection is there. Trust me Chad does approve of my course of action. For years i was always just a child just a girl with dreams. A girl in her own world. But now i see clearer than i ever have my focus is like a laser if you will. I know what needs to be done i know the path i need to take. See to make your own path in this place this company sometimes to truly get recognition you have to do it on your own. Apocalypse the tag titles are just the beginning by the end of the night Everyone will know the name Bianca Evans. I am going to prove myself not just at Apocalypse not just when I help Katie Steward become Supreme Champion by defeating Lohan Country. But every night going forward every moment after this one. I will make it undeniable that I am exactly what I say I am. I am the once in a lifetime talent. I am the reason everyone in that crowd buys those tickets pays for these ppvs. No one is my equal i play this game on a whole different level as everyone else. I’m not lost any more I have been found I have found who i am suppose to be what I need to be going forward. History is going to be made I promise you that. Apocalypse isn't the end it's just the beginning.
Interviewer: Thank you for your Time...Lexi-
Bianca: Bianca. If you call me that one more time I will slap you in the face.
Interviewer: Sorry Bianca. Thank you for your time good luck at Apocalypse live on pay per view this sunday.
Bianca: I don't need Luck. Luck is for underdogs for people who think that losing is a possibility. Losing Is not a possibility at Apocalypse. Katie Steward will be a supreme Champion. And like i said...History will be made. And SCW’s Goddess will take her next step forward.
Interviewer: Thank you once again.
Bianca simply nods in response as the scene cuts to black
-Fin-
Everything has changed….
Everything is different.
Last i wrote i was a girl in love...obsessed with a cruel god.
I was the girl that was lost...that most people hated for my attitude...my behavior.
I don't really blame them i was a pain in the ass.
But Today I awake a different person than i was before. Yesterday I was Lexi Von Aaron….Gods Bitch. His slave i lived to do Chad’s bidding i lived to be his property and play thing. I’d die for him...So that's what i did.
I wanted to die because Chad Lied to me. He lied to me when he didn't need to he lied to me to hurt me. He lied to me for his entertainment. And he fucked me. He fucked me hard and it hurt more than anything i had experienced...mentally i think maybe getting my head slammed into a pile of thumbtacks may have been better.
But the feeling of that...of fucking it was disgusting the worst thing i had ever been a part of. I still get why people love it so much. Letting someone in you...letting them violently thrust in and out it is sickening. It is the ultimate invasion yet people are so obsessed with it...so enthralled by this act that makes me sick to my stomach.I don't understand how people could enjoy this i don't understand how people could like being invaded in such a way. The closeness...it really is sickening even with someone i cared about someone i was obsessed with him in making him happy. But you can't make Chad...you can't make god happy. You can't because this world around him his creation he hates it all because everything is such a colossal disappointment.
People make me sick to their stomach...Chads general attitude has infected me maybe it's an std? Because i don't just hate the world….SCW (obviously), myself...but him as well. I hate him because he makes me love him makes me care about something in a world i despise.
Lexi pretended to feel the way she did but she wanted to be accepted wanted to have her place in the world no matter what the cost. But now...I have my place. I have my purpose… And It turns out once you find out what you are suppose to do with your life. What you're real meaning is...it could just kind of suck.
This is what i always wanted not just to be a Von Aaron. Not just to be the spoiled rich daddys girl. I am something else. I am someone else now….He killed who he was when he fucked me and told me the truth. He killed the girl that Adored him and would do anything for him. He might as well have taken a letter opener and sliced my throat.
It's not like i was the happiest person in the world...But I had hope...i had goals...i wanted to be something. But What Chad has taught me is how meaningless everything is how. Pointless existence is. That's why I tried to kill myself. Because i felt like i had lived my purpose.
My virginity was such a part of who i was i was devastated when i “thought” i lost it. Only to have the man i love take it from me after slut shaming me for months. It would seem pointless just a long game of sadism if you didn't know Chad. He played the long game with me. He knew what this would do...or knew in a way what it would do. He knew it would rock my world he knew that it would effect me in a profound way,.
The first day after i was in a haze i tried having a shower to scrub away the filth that seemed to have covered me. This feeling of being dirty...i tried to clean myself but i still felt dirty...i scrubbed and scrubbed but still i felt the same that i was just another whore like everyone else. Before i was more than them...but now i was just like them. Just like everyone else...and it sickened me.
But why...it was Chad i wanted it to...i wanted him to cleanse me...but now i realize everything i did all the dirty disgusting things i allowed him to do...i wasn’t the whore he said i was...he made me his personal virgin whore. Part of me doesn't even get why i am so mad. I am his now...i belonged to him but in those moments after i just wanted it to stop...So i tried to hang myself.
I felt like everywhere i looked going forward was hopeless being Chads toy….that disgusted me. Being without him alone on my own trying to piece some sort of life together that wasn't something i wanted either. I took one of chads belts and tied it to a light fixture hanging from the ceiling in the bedroom. And then stepped off the bed. Hanging yourself it hurts choking losing the air trying to breathe even when you are trying to kill yourself...It's not graceful or romantic. And a light fixture falling on top of you and a light bulb breaking against the back of your head hurts like a son of a bitch. Chad heard this of course.
“What the hell” He said looking at me as i coughed and was throwing up a little onto the floor.
I look up at him with anger i wanted it to be over. I just wanted this stupid existence to end.
“Did you seriously just try to kill yourself?” He says pulling me up i was still dazed from being hit in the head with the light fixture with it gave in and it fell on the back of my head.
“Why do you care...you had your fun” I say i wouldn't say something like this before...i would have been an obedient little dog. I would have begged him to do something to gain his favor to amuse him.
Chad looks at me with a surprised expression “So what you’ve given up that's it?”
“Isn't that what you wanted to break me. To shatter me into pieces and watch me fall apart mission accomplished. I feel completely disgusting...i look at myself and i feel sick to my stomach. You made a fool of me for all these months..”
“But you wanted it all along you wanted to be mine and now you are ashamed of what you’ve become you feel hurt what because i lied about something that by everything you’ve been saying for about a year would mean i’d changed everything for the better but now you are playing the victim acting like some pathetic emo girl whose been violated...i thought you were better than this. “ Chad says with disappointment.
I say nothing looking down ashamed of myself.
“I could have let you die that first night...I could have even pushed you off that roof. “
“I wish you had” I say softly.
Chad sternly walks up to me and Slaps me across the face “Shut the fuck up. This is not who you are...If this is who you want to be than go ahead die. “
“I hate you” I say looking up at him in a whisper.
“What was that” He says grabbing a hold of my arms his fingers pushing into the meat of my arms.
“I hate you” I say louder.
“What” he says pinching into my arms so it was hurting.
“I hate you!” I say even louder in almost a shout.
“What!?! because i fucked you!?! You dumb slut you asked for it you begged for it. “
“I FUCKING HATE YOU!” I scream in his face.
“Why why do you hate me? You said you loved me days ago and now you hate me!?” He screams back at me flakes of spit hit me in the face.
“You lied to me you saved me! And you you...you fucking lied to me! You did the most incredible thing for me. You were my fucking hero and you lied about it and said i was raped!” I scream at him as the tears roll down my face.
“So what? “ Chad says with a slight smirk he was enjoying this.
“You made me feel like nothing. You slut shamed me when you knew you were the only man that has ever touched me in that way. “
“So what i messed with you… why does that matter.”
He says almost annoyed as he lets go of me.
“You did the most incredible thing anyone has ever done for me… and the worst at the same time. And i hate you so much for it...but at the same time i love you more than anything in my life and that somehow...makes me hate myself.”
“Welcome to my world.” Chad says with a shrug sitting back in his chair looking like a king almost.
“You could have had me that night...instead...you played with me toyed me. “
“You are a incredibly easy person to manipulate. You were my property within an hour of meeting me.” Chad says
“I wanted to be better….i was at rock bottom...I”
“Don't act like you got nothing out of this deal here. You got to live in my house...you got to have some fun. You got to even be a champion for the first time in your career. I gave you everything i said i would and more.” Chad says looking at me than away he looked at me than away.
“Than why does it just feel so awful i always wanted to be something to someone. But this...this feels so disgusting” I say looking down in disgust.
“Welcome to being human. You can get whatever you want. You can achieve your goals and still feel like shit after. “
“You are such a bastard.” i say with a snarl.
“You can leave any time.”
I grit my teeth i had nothing but Chad he had me discard my family, my friends the life i had...or the sad excuse one would call a life.
“Well?” He asks looking to the door.
He was in control he was always in control. I was sick of that sick of being his pawn...this was my life i loved a god and hated him both more than anything.I submitted...i didn't know what else to do in that moment i went and sat down on his lap he put his arm around me sending a chill down my spine he removed the belt from my neck.
“Go get cleaned up”
That was that...I stood up to Chad only to Submit to him….i hated it and the only person i hated more than Chad was myself. Than...he fucked me like the whore i am. He drilled into my insides during it i wish he had chosen to beat me instead of stick his dick into me. But he knows i like being hit...or i did...i am not sure i liked anything at that point. After he came and passed out i looked at his...cum...dripping from me looking like a crushed twinkie almost.It's...so disgusting i thought to myself I am such a disgusting pig whore…But this was the life i choose being owned by a god is better than being alone isn't it? When i slept...i had nightmares of him fucking me...of being held down and violated of being so weak. I wanted to be strong all I wanted was to be strong.
I didn't stop trying to kill myself. No...because i could leave any time but i couldn't be without Chad. But the concept of being with him disgusted me as much as i couldn't be without him. I despised my existence i hated being his puppet. Alot of them more maybe cries for attention or cries just to try to escape this existence. Because i know the truth...i was born to be with him. I can't move on...i can't just find someone else. Because he is the only one...but...it just feels so awful…
I started feeling sick...more and more… it was really starting to get to me in that i would puke after getting up and i wasn't even hungover. Maybe all the drugs were taking its toll. I was laying in the bath tub just thinking how much i hated...everything. I set my phone to play everytime by Britney spears...it really seems to be an anthem to kill yourself to. I did my makeup i wanted to look beautiful for him when he found me. I wanted to look like what he wanted me to i made sure i was perfect...i wanted to hurt him...i wanted him to lose something to care for something.
I looked my naked body...and whispered “Whore” popped a handful of sleeping pills and then stepped into the bathtub. I slid slowly into the water. Maybe before it was a game just the only exit i could think of. But than...i wanted to die. I hated that even my dreams i couldn't be safe from him. He was there...fucking me there...he was there inside of me. I wanted to die not just to get out but to hurt him to hurt Chad cause if he felt for me a fraction of what i felt for him. He would be hurt by this hurt by me being dead. At the very least he’d have to fuck Sariel instead. I drifted to sleep sinking into the water.
I fall asleep…. I dream of white….I see him he smiles at me. I reach out and he takes my hand…”Don't go”....”Bye” i whisper. Than i was happy with that being the end. I was happy cause that was the Chad i wanted one that loved me...one that needed me...one that didn't exist.
I hear voices…
“You're friend got her just in time...But she should be fine...Did she tell you?”
I see chad and someone i don't recognize it looks like a doctor. I try to reach for him but i can't move. I see chads expression his eyes go wide...and i drift off again. I dream that chad is with me that he is brushing my hair that he is holding my hand. I was such a stupid girl.
I finally wake up my eyes fluttering open to see Chad sitting next to me with an unimpressed expression
“You're awake...so is this your thing now suicide...how unoriginal” Chad says in an annoyed tone.
“Chad” i whisper my throat feels dry i look around i am in a room in the house not chads room...or mine im in a bed strapped in i see an iv attached to me.
“You tried to off yourself...idiot.”
I say nothing. I thought i had been successful till that moment i had thought i was dead through the haze of cloudy memories of chad...the doctor.. The memories from my mind drifting in and out of consciousness.
I had to agree to not kill myself….Chad insisted on it and he knew if i was lying i spent a week in bed. If i wanted to spend the rest of my life strapped to this bed i had to give up again. Than Chad came into the room. I agreed….to not kill myself. So I became the ideal spouse i cleaned for Chad...I didn't think i'd do that for anyone… I cooked for him...But i had a new goal...i wanted to kill Chad. I despised him i despised him for keeping me alive...I despised him fucking me every night...i wouldn't even say anything about because i wasn't in the mood because i was never in the mood. But his dick would always end the day inside me…i hated it so much.But i took it...I stopped kissing him...i don't know when but i wasn't even sure i loved him.
I earned his trust enough to be able to go out on my own. I was out shopping and i went to the pharmacy to pick up my medication. I looked over..them and noticed i didn't have any birth control. I asked if that was a mistake and they said my doctor had cancelled it. It took me a few moments to connect a memory from after my little adventure in the bathtub.
“That bastard.”
I quickly ran down the aisle and grabbed a pregnancy test and tossed some money at the girl at the till. And rushed to the bathroom….And took the test in a panic...i stared at the test….it was positive….that fucking bastard got me Pregnant and he knew it. I was connecting more and more dots...vitamins…. He was giving me in the morning… he stopped hitting me. He fucking knew. I couldn't believe it. What was he doing i didn't want kids i never wanted to torture my body i never wanted to push a child out of my cunt.That bastard figured out a new.
I’m tempted to drive the car into the house...but I don't i enter the house i want blood...I don't just want to kill him so i can off myself...I want him dead for infecting my body. I drop any fakeness any of the old Submissive lexi...This was probably the moment i became who i am now.
He looks at me and smiles is he happy to see me. Of course he is i am his living fucking baby carriage. I am about to unleash hell on god himself when he presents me with a airplane ticket...To paris. That bastard…
I’m planning my move trying to figure out Chads Game...Trying to figure out what is his next big idea to torture me. But there's nothing it is beautiful. He treats me like a queen and i am waiting for him to strip me and fuck me in the ass. I am waiting for him to shove his dick in my mouth in the elevator of the hilton hotel and make me choke on his cum. But he doesn't he instead holds my hand he instead gives me what i wanted this whole time. Is this what couples do...Well aside from going to an underground fight club...most couples don't do that but we do i wanted to see one of these for years a fight to the death. Just people beating each other till nothing's left...what was Chads game. Was he trying to protect his spawn did he know i know? I loved seeing these people fight almost in the manner i did for a living but here it was till one of them was near death or dead. It was thrilling I even got excited… Which than i thought was when Chad would decide it was time to infest me again.
It was like a movie...I think if it were made into a movie i’d be played by the bitch from the notebook maybe. That girl from princess diaries...Chad by the guy from game of thrones that got his hand chopped off or maybe that guy from blade...back than. We go up to the top of the eiffel tower. It's the perfect romantic moment...so know chad this is when he sticks something in my ass. But he doesn't. I am cautious this would be the moment...when chad does something when he tortures me so i keep an arm's length away.
“I hate so much Lexi”He says looking away from me at the beautiful paris skyline.
I hate you ...i hate this thing inside of me i think to myself.
“My whole life i’ve always been looking at things in this way that is so fueled by hate.”He says not looking at me.
I say nothing...i touch my stomach but not so much to notify him i know. Even with him not looking i don't want him to know that for once i have an advantage over him.
“I don't get it...You...This girl this ignorant selfish fucking girl.”
He says still looking away looking at something in front of him maybe in his hand.
“I don't get why i care about you….I don't get why you hold any value to me”
Because I’m your fuck toy...because i am carrying you're disgusting spawn? I think to myself.
“But you're not just that...you are mean...and spiteful. Probably more driven than i have been in my entire life. “
I have zero idea what he’s getting at here. I assume some kind of sex thing...or maybe he’s going to break my jaw here on the eiffel tower.
“You are such a fucking idiot.And I have done so many horrible things to you...And what have you done to me...love me...worship me...devote yourself to me...You.”
Chad shakes his head “Fuck”
I am silent i can't say anything not out of respect just i can't think of anything to say that isn't screaming how dare you knock me up. How dare you infest me you bastard the one thing i never wanted from you and you do it.
“Alexis loved me to...But not in the way you did… And she was probably a lot smarter than you just leaving me. But you...you aren't going to leave me are you. “
“No”I whisper back.
“Well you tried to kill yourself but i guess that's on me for encouraging it daring you to do it half the time. “ He says.
I can't come up with anything to say back to him.
“But that...I don't know what i'd do without you now.”He says
What is he getting at?
“I don't get it most times why I even tolerate you there are moments I just despise you. There are moments where i hear your voice and it is like a drill right into my temple.”
“But than there are these things about you….damnit...God you are such a smug fucking bitch. Those eyes...god you just look so fucking full of yourself i just want to shove my cock down your throat and make you choke on it.”
“Is that suppose to be a compliment?” I ask tilting my head a little to the side.
“You are a bitch…”
“Yea...so” i respond
“This presence you have...it just gets me...I don't know. You are so bloodthirsty so selfish so greedy and conceited yet...to me you submit...i don't get it. For awhile I would have said when you say “I love you” You mean it but you mean it in a different way than how anyone else has said it to me.”Chad says his fingers moving through his hair.
“At first it was all a game you were this crazy girl that i thought i could mess around with… and make my boring ass life a little more interesting. But i could never predict what would have happened...not alexis leaving i was sure she'd get pissed off and leave eventually that was kind of part of the plan. But the part where...you...you.”
“I what? What did i do?” I ask
“You made me care about you...you fucking bitch.”
“I’m Chad Evans I am not suppose to care about anything i am fucking god why should i care about you. A mid level...at best Scw wrestler...you're not special.”
“Uh thanks.”
“No i thought you weren't you were something to pass the time to entertain me for a moment. But then you just being...you. You went and fucked things up.” He says in an annoyed tone.
I watch him in silence.
“You changed things in ways they weren't supposed to change.” Chad continues.
“Uh sorry?”
“You..Ok fuck it...It's been bothering me for weeks this isn't something i wanted to feel especially for you of all people. But...You fucking bitch i can't believe you fucking did this to me.”Chad says gripping the railing
“What Chadh what did i do to you?” I ask
“You made me love you. You bitch.”
I am surprised by this shocked my eyes go wide. Chad Turns reaching into his pocket for something. As he turns he sees me standing on the railing across from him looking down at him. One misstep than i become the prettiest splash of blood in all of paris.
“Lexi…”
“Yes Chad...you were saying” I say tilting my head slowly walking along the rail.
“Get down” He says looking at me with...was that concern.
“”No but go on...what were you saying you love me...or is it more...what's in me” I say letting it be known i knew what he put into me.
“Lexi calm down i was going to tell you.” Chad says holding out his hands to me.
“What when i was 6 months pregnant wondering why i was getting fat?!!” I say taking another step.
“Lexi get down...please”
“What for the spawn you have infested me with” I say angrily
“No forget about that...it's not because of a fucking kid…”Chad says.
“Hard to forget about something fucking growing inside of me. I gave up everything for you my family my friends...my virginity...and that all wasn't enough you had to do this to me you son of a bitch! “ I says slipping for a split second but quickly regaining my footing.
“Lexi please calm down we can talk this out.”
“We are talking Chad.” I say as i lift my leg high up ballerina style.
“Fuck it…” Chad reaches into his pocket pulling out a box he goes down to one knee
“Lexi will you marry me.”
“What the fuck.”I say stumbling Chad moves quickly snatching me by the hair and pulling me towards him i let out a scream.
“What the shit was that” I say looking at him shocked pushing away from him.
“You win Lexi...Marry me.” This game we were playing how did i win how could i possibly win.
“Wha”
“Do i even have a choice?” I ask
“You arent my property any more...ok Whatever…”Chad says
“What to protect you're fucking kid.”I ask
“No I want to be with you...I didn't want another kid the one i have is annoying enough as is. But with you...i warmed up to the idea.”
“Ok…” I say in a grumble.
“Is that you're answer.
“I’m not ok...with the fucking kid. But yes...I will Ok I’ll marry you.”
“You aren't just saying this to try to kill yourself again?” Chad asks.
“No...I won like you said” I say wrapping my arms around his neck.
“You bitch.” He says kissing me back….
So that's how Chad Asked me to Marry him. Now obviously that isn't the end of the story. We had a wedding on short notice really. I even made up with my friends in money in the bank so they could be my bridesmaids. The Wedding was great...for a short notice deal...I of course gave Chad a surprise of my own. A new hairstyle...and one more...surprise just to show God...That we were now playing a whole new game. And Me I wasn't Lexi Von Aaron Gods Bitch anymore….I am now Bianca Evans...Gods Bitch...Wife.
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I “Left” Scw months ago. By left i let my contract expire but really that wasn't my choice it was Chads choice and I wanted to be with him. He didn't care about the Tag titles losing them meant nothing to him. In Fact he seemed to enjoy they that from me. I loved being a champion I loved flaunting it i loved showing off i loved disrespecting conventions getting in peoples faces. And proudly stating I was “Gods Bitch” And we were the best thing to happen to the tag division ever...I was trying to make the division more. Idiot. I was trying to make it on equal ground to the singles title. I was wrong. The Tag division is the ultimate scarlet letter pretty much a id card to being a second class citizen.
The purpose of the Tag titles goes against everything this business especially SCW stands for. SCW is all about serving yourself. Doing whatever you can for yourself not caring who's back you stab.
I understand now how utterly pointless it all is. And than when someone tries to bring these titles any semblance. They are immediately dragged back into the mud and the pits of obscurity. To once again be the stepping stone to “something more”. It's depressing just thinking about the time and planning i put into making those things matter that i even thought that the tag team titles could main event anything more than a breakdown. It was idiotic the dreams of a stupid little girl.
I’ve been training since I told my husband that I’d be returning to wrestling. It's funny just saying that not just the fact i am coming back that i knew was coming. But telling Chad anything I didn't ask him. I didn't discuss it with him. I did it on my own...I may be his wife...And I will be his till i die. But at the same time I am my own woman...Lexi Von Aaron was his property. She was his toy his slut that he used as he pleased.
I take the scissors in my hand...Chad loved my hair loved how it was so long going down to nearly my ass...he loved to grab a hand full of it while he fucked me. He liked the leverage he liked to tug it to pull it like a dog's leash….Snip snip…
I am not his dog anymore...I am his wife.
It's strange how everything's changed. The events of my life that led to here and now. I don't feel like i am the same person i was before i got this ring. It's just a loop of gold with a large diamond...it's expensive but it in no way changed the person i am. But this bond...i have made this silly little vow. Has changed me…
My Mother always called me Lexi….but my father named me Bianca. When I signed the marriage Certificate I signed it with my birth name...And now my husbands...no my last name…
Bianca Evans.
I Looked at the name….And I realized that was who I am. The girl Lexi was dead the woman Bianca was now who stood in her place. In these last few months i changed so much it feels like i was a different person before...i know it sounds stupid. But This is my husbands gift to me… a rebirth. A chance to become a woman...no something more.
I look at the desk and I see it next to our wedding picture. A picture of Chad with Explicit Content...And more importantly Katie Steward. This is where it began this moment where i knew what i wanted to do now. With this new name this new life. I am ready to take my next step...into my career...my life...it's time to take...everything.
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We open with a shot of Bianca Evans(Formerly Lexi Von Aaron) She is wearing a long sleeved black silk shirt her and a pair of black leggings sitting on a white couch. As the scene opens she looks away out the window behind her you can see the arena where Apocalypse will be taking place in a few days.
Interviewer: Lexi-
Bianca turns her head quick at this.
Bianca: That's not my name.
Interviewer: But that's what the audience knows you as.
Bianca: Fuck the audience. I am not the same person as Lexi Von Aaron she was a little girl that dreamed of being something. I don't dream of anything I don't sit around hoping for things to happen if there is something I want I take it. I don't wait in line. I don't be patient no…
Bianca shakes her head
Bianca: If I want something i am going to take it. If i want a title i am going to go out there and say i want it. But i don't need a title to be relevant i am something better than the champion of this...horrible place. I am god's bitch...wife. And that just puts me on a level above everyone else.
Interviewer:So what is it about Katie Steward that makes her now the center of your attention.
Bianca: What about Katie Steward makes her the center of my attention? What a stupid question. Katie Steward is the bar that all women in SCW look at and want to meet she is the reasons everyone of us is here if you are a female wrestler. If there was no Katie Steward there would be no Sienna Swann no Kennedy Street no Syren and Certainly no Bianca Evans. She was the first woman to not only main event an SCW ppv but also the first to do it against a man. She is the longest standing member of this roster. You talk about people like Savior, Wheeler, Ace, Kelcey Wallace, Syren etc being pillars of scw. Katie Steward is the one pillar that has stood her the longest and I am here because of her. I know that i appreciate what she has given to me and this industry. I’m not one of those...oh i love this sport. I do it for the money and it's what i do best in life. But I do have respect for a few things and that is Katie Steward.
Interviewer: But why not just ask her if you wanted to team with her why attack her daughters?
Bianca: I wanted her attention I wanted her to know i was back. You see Katie has a tendency to lose focus she a little off the rails at times. I want the best Katie Steward i want her to be recognized as the best. Not on the preshow of rise to greatness that isn't right...that isn't cool. That is a slap in the face that one of the greatest stars in SCW history wasn't even on the main card. That is wrong that is something that i can't tolerate. So I had this little rematch clause in my pocket We were never beaten for the titles. My husband and I. We lost by dq and in any other match the titles don't change on a dq. But this is less about that and more about Katie Steward.
Interviewer: That does bring up the point why Katie? And not Chad you're husband and partner.
Bianca: I have Chad’s full support in this. I wouldn't go and do things behind his back. Katie Steward is the greatest female competitor in SCW history. And it disgusts me that people like that Cow...that Celestial Cow Amy Chastaine are Supreme Champion and she isn't. So i am here to fix history to repair scw. And make Katie Steward a supreme Champion. And I may be wrong but the first to not only hold every title the boys can win but the Women's title as well. I am going to be a part of history at apocalypse. Because my name will be in there. My goal i will tell you right now...Is to make it into the hall of fame. I want to be like Katie Steward i want to be one of those people that changed this company that made people look at things differently. This isn't a momentary gang thing this is just one piece of a larger puzzle that lands me right next to Katie Steward among the greats in this company.
Bianca: See I’m not a good person. I know that I am not a noble person I am not doing this out of charity. Yes I respect Katie but I am doing this for myself to take another step forward. For a year Chad and I were the best part of this company...We were the reason people tuned in. We beat the very best and we were never put in our place we were the bad guys everyone hated and i haven't learned any grand lesson other than...I am STILL better than everyone else in this company. I come back and i am the most important part of the show. People were automatically asking what is she doing? What is her game? Who is her target? I do everything i do for a reason like i said one piece in the bigger puzzle that is my career. And to create that puzzle i am going to create moments...Like Katie Steward becoming Supreme Champion. By taking those tag titles...this isn't an act of kindness in any way i am doing this for me. I am doing this so I can be in the spotlight. Katie Steward may be the one that will be supreme Champion but this is about me.
Interviewer: How is this about you? This really doesn't make sense you’ve always been selfish is this a new side of you we haven't seen before.
Bianca: Like I said i do everything for a purpose and a reason. And does Katie deserve this opportunity. Yes she does definitely. But I’m not some saint doing it out of the kindness of my heart. I mean yes i look heavenly and i am god's wife...so now that i think about it maybe i am a saint. I’ll work that out later. The point is i'm not about charity and yes my goal is to help out a legend achieve some thing she both deserves and has eluded her for some time. But it's not going to be without a cost. Because nothing in life is free nothing is easy and everything has a cost.
Interviewer:What do you mean by that.
Bianca: You...Scw, Lohan Country and Even Katie Steward will see in time. But i am always about the bigger picture i am ALWAYS about how my action will serve me. And will lead me to my goals. Lohan Country are Elite talent don't think I’m under estimating them. People thought of Lexi Von Aaron as an idiot they almost consistently underestimated me,. They almost always thought i made my way to the arena on a short bus.And I always used that to my advantage because i may not be “book smart” but that really means nothing in SCW. It doesn't matter if you're background is a harvard graduate or a janitor. It doesn't mean shit when you are in that ring. It doesn't matter if you are genius or can't read a word. If you can hit someone in the face hard enough. So Lohan country can go and think i am a idiot or some sort of simpleton. Whatever they can think of me however they'd like. It really makes no difference to me it really doesn't matter what they think because every misconception is another advantage for me. Every moment of overconfidence is another i can steal. Lohan country are going to think they have the advantage of being sisters the advantage of teaming together and knowing each other better than Katie and i. We won't ever have that bond Lohan Country has. We won't ever know each other the way Dawn and Abigail. And I wouldn't want that either.
Interviewer: Do you believe that the skills you and Katie posses be enough to beat a team that is so insync as Lohan Country?
Bianca: We don't need to work together like Lohan Country. We do not need to have the bond that lohan country has. We don't need to be as close as sister or whatever. Because as much as the bond of sisters. It can be just as much a weakness as it is a strength as hard as they may want to fight for each other. They also care about each other you could even say they'd die for each other and that is a weakness. Because I may respect Katie but I won't die for her i wont burn in flames for her and I won't let her well being get in the way of what i want. I won't let it get in the way of my goals If Katie were to stand in the way of my goals my reaction will be anything but…”sisterly”. But that is the advantage we have because That makes what needs to be done easier.
Interviewer: What needs to be done you're motives are so...vague what is it you are after.
Bianca: My Goal is to ensure a goddess takes her rightful place. By any means necessary. When i first one those titles i went to war. With two former world champions. I have never even had a world title shot. I had never even won a title in this company. I doubt any one thought we could pull it off. They were beloved by all “Bae”
She says the word with complete and utter disgust.
Bianca: Really the most disgusting word in the history of the spoken word. I beat two of the best women in SCW history not just slipping away with the win. But indisputeable fashion we beat them. And the validation i felt was amazing. I beat the woman I looked up to getting into this business. I beat Kennedy Street the woman i based so much of my early career on. My brother once managed her to the SCW title. And when i faced her that first time almost two years ago on Breakdown i remember Ethan telling me i’d never be on her level. That i didn't deserve to be in the same ring as her. That it was my honor to be used pretty much like an enhancement talent against her. For too long I allowed others words to control me. I let what the critics say about me consume me. They said i had talent they said that i could work a good match. But i just was missing something. I was destined to be one of those people that whenever it was a big match i would choke...I would fall apart...title shots...matches with big stars...i just couldn't keep it together. I always succumbed to my nerves despite any level of confidence i may have had in there.My weakness was always that… not my skill I look at the others in SCW. The best of the best the very elite of this industry and i know i am better than they are. I knew than i was better and i even said i was but i didn't believe it. I had these moments of doubt and that's what would get me. Thinking through the eyes of a former fan “i am so lucky to be here” I would just get these moments where my focus would drift and bang…. Beaten. I’d slip up and leave an opening and eat an opponent's finish or something. The ignorance of the child i know i have all the tools to become one of the greatest in this company's history. And till that match against Bae deep down everyone believed i was just going to be a name on the card. But on that night i tasted immortality...I tasted what it was like to walk with greatness. I tasted what it was like to be one of the best when i beat one of the best. And while my husband the win meant little to him...he’d been there before he’d won big matches before this wasn't some incredible transcendent experience for him because he has been elite in scw since day one. Since longer than everyone in that longer room with very few exceptions. He shrugged off the win barely even cared allowed some idiot to set the title on fire. Me i cherished it...i never had a title before that moment i couldn't even with a woman's title in developmental. Chad he didn't care about being a champion because he didn't need it. Chad could never hold another title and he could show up on any night and main event the next show. He is god...my husband is god. And i want to be on his level hows that for motivation.
Interviewer: Speaking of Chad where is he?
Bianca: Chad is where he needs to be. This is my time this is my time to become the person i need to be. I have to do things by myself before you say it going for the tag titles with Katie Steward is part of the big picture. It is like i said about making history being a part of a moment that no one will ever forget. It will be on the highlight reels they show at the beginning of shows for years to come this is history and i will be making it. Chad was a part of Explicit Content with Katie she has always been one of the few people Chad has a soft spot for. Be it her connection to his son or the numerous times they have teamed together throughout the years. The connection is there. Trust me Chad does approve of my course of action. For years i was always just a child just a girl with dreams. A girl in her own world. But now i see clearer than i ever have my focus is like a laser if you will. I know what needs to be done i know the path i need to take. See to make your own path in this place this company sometimes to truly get recognition you have to do it on your own. Apocalypse the tag titles are just the beginning by the end of the night Everyone will know the name Bianca Evans. I am going to prove myself not just at Apocalypse not just when I help Katie Steward become Supreme Champion by defeating Lohan Country. But every night going forward every moment after this one. I will make it undeniable that I am exactly what I say I am. I am the once in a lifetime talent. I am the reason everyone in that crowd buys those tickets pays for these ppvs. No one is my equal i play this game on a whole different level as everyone else. I’m not lost any more I have been found I have found who i am suppose to be what I need to be going forward. History is going to be made I promise you that. Apocalypse isn't the end it's just the beginning.
Interviewer: Thank you for your Time...Lexi-
Bianca: Bianca. If you call me that one more time I will slap you in the face.
Interviewer: Sorry Bianca. Thank you for your time good luck at Apocalypse live on pay per view this sunday.
Bianca: I don't need Luck. Luck is for underdogs for people who think that losing is a possibility. Losing Is not a possibility at Apocalypse. Katie Steward will be a supreme Champion. And like i said...History will be made. And SCW’s Goddess will take her next step forward.
Interviewer: Thank you once again.
Bianca simply nods in response as the scene cuts to black
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Writer of Dillusion, David Helms, Katelyn Buehler, Kordy and Bianca Evans
Writer of Dillusion, David Helms, Katelyn Buehler, Kordy and Bianca Evans