01-04-2023, 01:00 AM
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[VOYAGERS]
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[Camera pans open inside a compact, dim lit gym. To the top left behind Alexis was a window that showed the night sky. The walls were faded white, with a few spots in which it was peeling. Alexis was seated on the apron with her body leaning backwards on the middle rope. Her gray tanktop was drenched with sweat dripping from her brow. Her hair was frazzled. Her body was hunched over. Quick pants escaped her mouth like heartbeats. Her eyes lock in on the camera.]
Alexis: It's a new year. We made it to another one. Through everything in the last year. Highs, lows. All the good and bad. If you're listening, we made it. 2023.
[Alexis raises her right hand to rub her eyebrow.]
Alexis: Naturally, I start the year paying for my sins on Thursday. With Konrad. Around this time last year, I came back. Like a thief in the night, End of he Year Special, there I was. I had all these goals. I had all this energy. The city was so hyped, you know? The amount of love I got from my area. I keep bringing this up because it hits me every time but seeing and hearing these new wrestlers tell me how watching me inspired them to want to wrestle. Or how I can do no wrong.
[Alexis strokes her chin. Her eyes widened a bit. Her eyes drift downward.]
Alexis: You come back hot, you think you're invincible. Because you're thinking of all the good that could happen. You get these rose colored glasses. I'll win this belt. I'll beat this person finally. I'll do this. And then you realize the part you forgot; that wrestling is pain. It was a challenging year. In the ring, I felt I let a lot of things slipped through my fingers. You know, certain matches. The Flame. Getting close. Not winning the Addy. Ending the year taking the fall for my team in trios.
That's why you want my head this week, Konrad.
[Alexis rub her face.]
Alexis: Privately, there was some things that i saw that didn't involve me that had me unable to sleep. There were things that I had done, taking advantage of my celebrity in the city that I felt gross. It's funny, you never know how fucked up you are until it's pointed out to you. And then you see yourself fall for the same traps. Willingly.
Konrad, you were there in that hotel room. After Breakdown. It was last month and I'm looking in your eyes. I'm looking in Selena's eyes. And I'm saying "I'm going to do my part. I'm going to lay it all on the line to make this work. Don't fuck me over." And then, in the heat of the moment, I get greedy. I go for the kill. And I get sloppy. And Allocco beats me.
[Alexis lets out a long sigh before she gnashs her teeth.]
Alexis: I know why this match was made. I already know what's on your mind. This is not a big mystery. I didn't hold on to my end. And that's why it's you and me, Thursday night. And not you, me and Selena, side by side in the semis. There is no running from me. This is my payment. You clotheslining my head off.
[Alexis drops her hands back to her sides, eyes squinting at the camera.]
Alexis: You threatened my life before, Konrad. Actually, if we're counting, you've threated my life three times. Back in July, when we did this dance and you said I was one of these pathetic pro wrestlers would holds ands and sing Kumbayee. It made me wonder if you were thinking of Andrea Quinne, not Alexis Quinne because I don't think I'll ever be mistake for Mother Theresa. The second time, two days after you, me and Selena talked. We go to Florida. We're tying to 'build team chemistry."
[Alexis' voice turns whimiscal.]
Alexis: And his idea was for us to race each other. The NASCAR cars. It's hot as hell in there. It's like 80 in general outside. I do it anyways and as we're driving, this guy gets real tight to Selena so she can spin out and almost die and then doing the same to me. I saw my life flash before my eyes. I'm thinking, if there's a God above, I'm going to fucking die in a hot ass NASCAR because this loon wants to prove a point.
The third time will be Thursday.
It hasn't happened yet but it's coming. You want my blood. Like everyone else. There's a reason why this will be your third time threatening my life and that's because the first two times you couldn't do it. That match in July you hit me as hard as I've been hit, maybe ever. And I've wrestled, you know, Xander, Merrick Wisemen, Rachel Foxx. And we all saw what happened in the end And that was your ass on the mat.
You tried to kill me when we were driving. I crashed, but I got out of that car and I went right up to your face about it. You know, Konrad, I have this new tradition. It started two years ago. I was in Uganda and this mother, you know, just documents everything that happens to her. She's struggling with kids and she told me she's writing it for them. She's writing her time watching them grow from her eyes so when they get older and one day when she's dead, they can read it.
[Alexis runs her hands through her hair.]
Alexis: So I started doing it. Why not? I started writing in a journal, at the end of every month everything that happened. Good, bad, I put it all done. From my perspective. My views of the world. What I think of myself. And at the end of the year, after I do December, I write this year in review. Goals I accomplished. Things I failed. Highlights. Lowlights.
I realized this year I don't have anyone to really give this to when I die. I can't give it to my parents because if something happened to me, like say, you Konrad finally ending me. And it's possible. You can get in that space where you just want to kill. It only takes one hit and that's it. I wouldn't want to give that to my parents and only have that. I can't give it to my sister. I'm probably never getting married. Probably for good reason.
So where does that leave me? Maybe I am someone with nothing to lose even though I want it all, you know? But when i write in that journal, Iit's not a death wish. I put my goals in there. Shit I want to get done. Shit I expect to get done. This year I put in there winning a belt. I have to. I have to. In general this it's a big week for me. First Voyage. This Saturday. San Fran. You know, me and Angela we've been planning this for a while. We launched VOYAGERS, you know, we had a vision. A vision turned to action and action into reality. We're excited about this doc we put together. Really she did it. She was the one following JT.
[Alexis presses her lips together, placing her hands on top of her knees.]
Alexis: All of this is to say, Konrad, Thursday night I'll take the payment. I'll take the licks. But I have too much to let you fucking put me down. I already beat you once. But this is a different match. I have shit I want to do and none of that includes letting you end me. So if you want me, you wanna put me to the ground. Here you go. Third's time is the charm right?
Nah. Not for you.
Not for you.
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[VOYAGERS]
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[Camera pans open inside a compact, dim lit gym. To the top left behind Alexis was a window that showed the night sky. The walls were faded white, with a few spots in which it was peeling. Alexis was seated on the apron with her body leaning backwards on the middle rope. Her gray tanktop was drenched with sweat dripping from her brow. Her hair was frazzled. Her body was hunched over. Quick pants escaped her mouth like heartbeats. Her eyes lock in on the camera.]
Alexis: It's a new year. We made it to another one. Through everything in the last year. Highs, lows. All the good and bad. If you're listening, we made it. 2023.
[Alexis raises her right hand to rub her eyebrow.]
Alexis: Naturally, I start the year paying for my sins on Thursday. With Konrad. Around this time last year, I came back. Like a thief in the night, End of he Year Special, there I was. I had all these goals. I had all this energy. The city was so hyped, you know? The amount of love I got from my area. I keep bringing this up because it hits me every time but seeing and hearing these new wrestlers tell me how watching me inspired them to want to wrestle. Or how I can do no wrong.
[Alexis strokes her chin. Her eyes widened a bit. Her eyes drift downward.]
Alexis: You come back hot, you think you're invincible. Because you're thinking of all the good that could happen. You get these rose colored glasses. I'll win this belt. I'll beat this person finally. I'll do this. And then you realize the part you forgot; that wrestling is pain. It was a challenging year. In the ring, I felt I let a lot of things slipped through my fingers. You know, certain matches. The Flame. Getting close. Not winning the Addy. Ending the year taking the fall for my team in trios.
That's why you want my head this week, Konrad.
[Alexis rub her face.]
Alexis: Privately, there was some things that i saw that didn't involve me that had me unable to sleep. There were things that I had done, taking advantage of my celebrity in the city that I felt gross. It's funny, you never know how fucked up you are until it's pointed out to you. And then you see yourself fall for the same traps. Willingly.
Konrad, you were there in that hotel room. After Breakdown. It was last month and I'm looking in your eyes. I'm looking in Selena's eyes. And I'm saying "I'm going to do my part. I'm going to lay it all on the line to make this work. Don't fuck me over." And then, in the heat of the moment, I get greedy. I go for the kill. And I get sloppy. And Allocco beats me.
[Alexis lets out a long sigh before she gnashs her teeth.]
Alexis: I know why this match was made. I already know what's on your mind. This is not a big mystery. I didn't hold on to my end. And that's why it's you and me, Thursday night. And not you, me and Selena, side by side in the semis. There is no running from me. This is my payment. You clotheslining my head off.
[Alexis drops her hands back to her sides, eyes squinting at the camera.]
Alexis: You threatened my life before, Konrad. Actually, if we're counting, you've threated my life three times. Back in July, when we did this dance and you said I was one of these pathetic pro wrestlers would holds ands and sing Kumbayee. It made me wonder if you were thinking of Andrea Quinne, not Alexis Quinne because I don't think I'll ever be mistake for Mother Theresa. The second time, two days after you, me and Selena talked. We go to Florida. We're tying to 'build team chemistry."
[Alexis' voice turns whimiscal.]
Alexis: And his idea was for us to race each other. The NASCAR cars. It's hot as hell in there. It's like 80 in general outside. I do it anyways and as we're driving, this guy gets real tight to Selena so she can spin out and almost die and then doing the same to me. I saw my life flash before my eyes. I'm thinking, if there's a God above, I'm going to fucking die in a hot ass NASCAR because this loon wants to prove a point.
The third time will be Thursday.
It hasn't happened yet but it's coming. You want my blood. Like everyone else. There's a reason why this will be your third time threatening my life and that's because the first two times you couldn't do it. That match in July you hit me as hard as I've been hit, maybe ever. And I've wrestled, you know, Xander, Merrick Wisemen, Rachel Foxx. And we all saw what happened in the end And that was your ass on the mat.
You tried to kill me when we were driving. I crashed, but I got out of that car and I went right up to your face about it. You know, Konrad, I have this new tradition. It started two years ago. I was in Uganda and this mother, you know, just documents everything that happens to her. She's struggling with kids and she told me she's writing it for them. She's writing her time watching them grow from her eyes so when they get older and one day when she's dead, they can read it.
[Alexis runs her hands through her hair.]
Alexis: So I started doing it. Why not? I started writing in a journal, at the end of every month everything that happened. Good, bad, I put it all done. From my perspective. My views of the world. What I think of myself. And at the end of the year, after I do December, I write this year in review. Goals I accomplished. Things I failed. Highlights. Lowlights.
I realized this year I don't have anyone to really give this to when I die. I can't give it to my parents because if something happened to me, like say, you Konrad finally ending me. And it's possible. You can get in that space where you just want to kill. It only takes one hit and that's it. I wouldn't want to give that to my parents and only have that. I can't give it to my sister. I'm probably never getting married. Probably for good reason.
So where does that leave me? Maybe I am someone with nothing to lose even though I want it all, you know? But when i write in that journal, Iit's not a death wish. I put my goals in there. Shit I want to get done. Shit I expect to get done. This year I put in there winning a belt. I have to. I have to. In general this it's a big week for me. First Voyage. This Saturday. San Fran. You know, me and Angela we've been planning this for a while. We launched VOYAGERS, you know, we had a vision. A vision turned to action and action into reality. We're excited about this doc we put together. Really she did it. She was the one following JT.
[Alexis presses her lips together, placing her hands on top of her knees.]
Alexis: All of this is to say, Konrad, Thursday night I'll take the payment. I'll take the licks. But I have too much to let you fucking put me down. I already beat you once. But this is a different match. I have shit I want to do and none of that includes letting you end me. So if you want me, you wanna put me to the ground. Here you go. Third's time is the charm right?
Nah. Not for you.
Not for you.
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