Shaun Cruze vs. Konrad Raab

[Konrad Raab]

Indianapolis, Indiana. Monday 22nd July. (Offline)

I was still at Indianapolis track because I had two-day special Indycar tests here, and man, the car was the fastest I've ever driven. I had my fellow IMSA Rolex twenty-four-hour teammate driver, Colton Herta, with me. Mario and Michael Andretti watched me evaluate if I'm deemed good enough for Indy five hundred next year. They said I was fast enough for it, and they explained how to qualify for the race. I was fine because I would rather earn my way to get the spot than not. It's exactly how Larson did it and I will do the same too.

The experience was like no other I've had before, with the Andretti's and Colton patting me around the back before we talked about the testing today and things I needed to work on. I also had questions to ask about the cars and competition I'll be facing for next year's Indy five hundred race. After the two-hour-long meeting, team one, at least for today, was done, and I knew I wasn't finished with meetings yet.

I had my last one before heading off to Chicago and Paris in one day after a few more hours of testing in Indianapolis track tomorrow, one with my therapist, Ross Barnes. As I had predicted, I got to the trailer as I was staying one more night here. Ross was standing right there as I opened it, and he followed me in and closed the door as he knew where to sit by now. I got cans of Celsius out of the fridge for myself and Ross and slid one to him, and we opened and drank some before we got into business.

Ross Barnes: “I don't know why Shaun came out to address you; it made no sense.”

Konrad Raab: “Well, he wasn't wrong. I was good friends with Owen when I was the pretend nice guy, but I got to be honest, I was a fucking pushover, and that's what these people don't understand. It seems they enjoyed the walkover of Konrad, who did absolutely nothing to defend himself until he lost his rag and got angry. People wanted that, and they got him”

Ross Barnes: “I understand, but Shaun shouldn't have come to you like that. However, he's right as well that you need to take title opportunities as they come to you. I understand you can't do the battle royal, which is a real shame, but the main important thing is you facing Shaun. God knows why he selected you, but he wasn't wrong at all about what he said.”

I shook my head because I felt Shaun was completely wrong about these young talents being so fucking desperate, and I couldn't think how stupid these new blood wrestlers really are. They are just so generic and boring, like all the champions except Eavan. They are just dull, and they were stupid to go out of their characters to be just themselves.

Konrad Raab: “No, he wasn't. Seeing these new blood wrestlers doing everything to win titles is beyond the most stupid thing I've seen in the business. Also, Dakon and Ludvig never wanted solo titles, and how many people will get that through their thick heads?”

Ross Barnes: “I know, and it comes across as if Dakon and Ludvig are lying about it and faking it.”

Konrad Raab: “The Fact is they hated each other's guts, something I wasn't aware of until they told me upfront. They aren't going to repeat history because idiots are peer-pressuring them to change, and that's all it is. They change because they were forced to instead of wanting to, despite saying they wanted to.”

Ross Barnes: “Wow, it's impressive they don't want to get on each other's nerves again. I will be honest; there's no team like them out there who only want the tag gold.”

It was true, there wasn't, and yet, people wanted them to be like every other tag wrestler around the company, be solo wrestlers to win solo belts. Little do those idiots know I got plans for that with the Turkish kid coming up and a couple of Europeans who flat-out stated to me when I was last at the wrestling school they wanted to join the team, too. A French girl and an Hungarian guy, but they needed more training first and wanted to join after I've left which I can relate. I nodded.

Konrad Raab: “But that's what everyone else doesn't want from them. For example, there are millions of tag teams that aren't going to be solo wrestlers at any point because they don't want to be. If they did, they said they'd go to other companies to do so.”

Ross Barnes: “But getting back to Shaun, I think you need to consider challenging for champions again after the match against him.”

Konrad Raab: “It depends if the right champion comes along that I feel won't be lacklustre. But if Josh or Enigma become champions, I will be challenging them flat out, especially since I've still got unfinished business with Enigma, and I'm not giving that goal up of facing him, even after facing Shaun.”

I was standing by my statement that what Shaun had done was a temporary halt to my plans on getting that rematch with Enigma, and as far as I'm concerned, CHBK only delayed it temporarily; not gonna fucking listen to him. That's what annoyed me the most, not like I was challenging to face a god damn champion. Back in my days, it was against the sin of wrestling to do that without earning it. It's no wonder why I wasn't enjoying wrestling anymore. I drank a lot and banged my fist down on the table.

Ross Barnes: “Do you feel your wrestling career in the past affected you to refuse to make these changes?”

Konrad Raab: “Yes, because I was raised in the business to fucking earn things. I came in as a non-wrestler, wanting to face a champion in a non-title match, and I had to earn that to get a contract to get into a wrestling school. But these new blood wrestlers, they don't want that at all. It pissed me off because it was the only way back then to prove to get in the business.”

Ross Barnes: “You've never told me this, but it's clear that the past has hindered you from having this thinking, which I understand. It shouldn't have changed from your days, but things do change over time, unfortunately. Maybe these new blood wrestlers and Shaun are telling you something.”

Konrad Raab: “Well, I don't like it and never will. I'm going to show Shaun what a big mistake he made by getting in my face and expecting no payback for the shit he said about me. No, I don't let shit go like that whatsoever. Without me telling the team to do it, they went and did the damage to Shaun's media property themselves. People acted like the team visited Shaun's house to exteriorise his wife and kid. I don't know how he could take something like public property damage seriously.”

I hated that people thought that about Ludvig and Dakon technically, but what the cameras didn't catch or know was that Kemal did some damage, too. Honestly, he needed to prove how much of a leader he was going to be when I retired, and that's something I haven't told Ross yet because he would pressure me to do title matches a lot more. I'd rather he find out when I tell the world in January next year.

Ross Barnes: “Maybe because that business meant a lot to him. Imagine someone going into your garages and destroying your cars. I mean, obviously, you have the money to get other parts, but Shaun may not have as much money as you do to rebuild the place as you do to get new dirt cars and the Super Late Models tarmac cars.”

Konrad Raab: “Also, my friends in racing would give me new cars to build and give away cars to me anyway.”

Ross Barnes: “That's true. I have a feeling you got more to talk about.”

Konrad Raab: “I do, and you'll also see it on my blog. Shaun had no fucking business talking down to me the way he did, and he fucking knows it, being the hypocrite he is. I know a few things or two that will point out what Shaun, Kennedy and others have been doing during their wrestling careers, and I don't get why what I do is any different to what they used to do or do in Shaun's case.”

Of course I know why, it's because I race every single weekend and SCW staff knew this since two thousand and twenty two. I wonder if Shaun even thinks about if he was in the same position to decide an acting scene he had to do on that day to finalise a scene for a film or to wrestle Enigma or some other wrestler. I think if he had been in that position, he would have understood, and he should've done it.

Ross Barnes: “Well, I won't bore you with the details, but I really want you to think, just think about being champion again. We need to get you there once again and for you to conquer your fear of going for the world title. I understand this time for the rumble, you weren't ready.”

Konrad Raab: “No, because every time I've ever taken part in the rumble, I was always eliminated because I get a massive anxiety attack due to the pressure of doing everything to win the match for the world title. The last time I made an effort was two years ago, and I have never done it since.”

Ross Barnes: “Yeah, and I know that's exactly the reason why I'm here, and we're working on it. Shaun doesn't know that, and neither does anyone else in the wrestling business. It's better you hide it than tell the world why you avoid doing the Rumble and want to find other ways to get to the Rise To Greatness main event for the world title.”

Konrad Raab: “And there is. People stupidly forgot about another type of match SCW does where you can do the same thing but for a lot less. I mention that in the blog and it seems I have to tell the story how the NASCAR dream even came up as well. Because there's something about my past that I've never told people about, and if I have, people have forgotten it.”

That's the thing about these wrestler idiots: None of them know what I truly did before I became a professional wrestler. The fact is, I need to get out of my chest about the differences between NASCAR and wrestling these days. It's not even funny that I've been holding this back, given how much of the truth it is right now. I even laugh at it when I think about it, and it shouldn't be funny.

Ross Barnes: “I am curious now what you used to do before you became a professional wrestler, but I'm sure I will find that out in your blog. I think we've covered everything about Shaun, and I'll see you on Sunday at the Rise To Greatness event.”

Konrad Raab: “For sure, with Shaun's blood on my hands and my face, it will be a good end to his pathetic ass career, if you even call it that, with his return at Taking Hold Of The Flame Rumble, but he had a career nevertheless. See you there; I need to rest for more Indycar training, wrestling in Chicago against Eavan and flying to Paris.”

Ross groaned as I knew I had to say that to stop him from ever talking about the stupid battle royal match he wanted me to compete in so much and granted, it was his job, but I covered up the business side of things to not tell him the truth about the real reason I was going to Paris and my lady friend has no idea what I'm about to do when she's finished her events at the Olympics while being in Paris.

Funny, nobody in wrestling even knows about me having a lady friend this entire time because I kept it hidden from wrestlers and the business itself on purpose. NASCAR drivers and teams know because they've seen me hang around with her, and obviously, her skateboarding friends know since I met them on Sunday with the X-Games being a month ago. Anyway, Ross left, and I went to my room in my trailer and went straight to sleep with a busy week ahead of me before wrestling and another week of racing break.

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Facing a stupid pipsqueak who thought they could face me to try and pinpoint fiction to me and the wrestling world when he's a liar blog. (Online)

“You know how far wrestling has fallen when there are more rivalries and hatred between drivers in NASCAR than in professional wrestling. It's embarrassing that NASCAR can actually build stories of those driver rivalries, hatred, and fights better than wrestling can. Wrestling, on the other hand, has only five matches in RTG, including mine, that have both.

Every other match, like the wrestlers who refuse to separate their wrestling characters to be themselves out of the ring, is so dull and redundant because everyone says and does the same as each other that I couldn't tell the difference between Bree and Yuyo other than their names because they are near enough the same people. Because New Blood has corrupted this business with their respect and challenging titles, talk that doesn't sell tickets because it's fucking boring how many of you have gone away from being wrestling characters to being your pathetic selves when you all should separate yourselves from being wrestlers.

The fact you lot don't only take a shit on the business. I already proved why Deanna was not a challenge at all for me as a champion because she wasn't. She let me throw her around like a ragdoll, giving me zero challenge to fight with violence. So that's one champion that can be ruled, and it's not a challenging threat to me at any point.

But this is the kind of shit veterans like pipsqueak Shaun Cruze supports. A guy who's won so many titles and is in the hall of fame, a guy who's meant to be respected. I respect Owen Cruze for giving me that tenth-anniversary match, and I will never forget it. Still, you are supporting undeserving pricks who haven't been here for a cup of tea to make an impact in the rumble because they know they can't hack making debuts on the Breakdown program.

Oh, entering the rumble will give you balls. No it doesn't, it makes the wrestlers taking part in it stupid. Ninety-nine per cent of the wrestlers state every year how they'll main event Rise To Greatness and how bad they'd do anything to get there, and when they get eliminated after all that false hope in themselves, I laugh at how pathetic they were for saying unrealistic crap. I even laugh at myself for saying unrealistic shit to this day when I've been in it.

Newsflash, you stupid pipsqueak, and you should've already known this, but there is another way of getting to a world title main event match at Rise To Greatness without entering an unrealistic cliché rumble. Do any veteran SCW wrestlers remember the Trios Tournament? Yes, that tournament where you're paired up with two other wrestlers and the three winners get a Trios Contract to cash in any match you want to have. That was the other way I would take you, stupid idiot, and you call me out for doing minimal research.

Another thing you were a hypocrite about is your dedication to wrestling. You skipped wrestling shows and matches to do Film/TV show series scenes. Why was it alright for you to do and me doing a NASCAR race was not? You went almost the same amount of time away from wrestling as I did. Did you also use wrestling money to get into films and acting for travel expenses?

Because acting is not a cheap job either. You often debated whether you should do matches with wrestlers or go off and do film/TV show series scenes with other actors and actresses. Shaun, you don't know what I used to do before I became a wrestler. It's led me partly to be in NASCAR to shut your ass up on saying I use wrestling for money when I had plenty of it before I was a wrestler, you stupid prick, and I never thought I'd be telling this story, but since you told lies about me, let's bring the truth out in the open.

Before I became a wrestler, I did banger car racing in Germany. I hosted events every year, including destroying caravans and even taking part in banger car races outside events I used to hold, and I was damn good at it. Won nearly every race in Germany. Back in two thousand and twenty, I went to the Daytona Five Hundred Race and a day later, they were doing next-gen car testing.

While I was there, Brad Rogers, who's a team boss for a top NASCAR team, remembered me for my banger car races I won because he went to Germany to watch them and offered me a shot to be in the test car, which I gladly accepted. I did testing laps in a NASCAR that was faster than everyone, but Denny Hamlin who won the race that year. After that, Brad gave me a number to call if I wanted to do NASCAR, and I did it in two thousand twenty-two on a part-time basis before it led to full-time bases the next year.

So don't ever dare say to me I use this business for money because I don't. I use this business for letting my anger out to beat the shit out of people because I can't do it in other places legally. I would wrestle for free without titles around me, unlike the rest of the roster, who wouldn't because there's no other place than in wrestling to let my anger and aggression out. So because I demanded to face Enigma, who wasn't champion because CHBK forgot I race on Saturdays and stupidly promoted the match on a day he knew I couldn't do it, I was disrespecting the business? Disrespecting the business would be what Matt Knox did, jumping the gun to demand to face a champion when he didn't want to earn one by beating the champion in a non-title match first.

That, to me, is disrespecting the business, Shaun. Also, where did I say anything about retiring? I never said that sort of thing whatsoever, you idiot. Jumping the gun, huh? The point is you know nothing about me, and all this talk about me being more successful when I was a fucking pushover and respectful when I lacked aggression?

It's bullshit. I went nowhere, and people like Owen and David did nothing when Jason Helms mocked and tortured me all those times, and you must wonder why I can't be myself. Because wrestlers wouldn't allow me to be myself, and that's what I will tell everyone: being yourself is impossible in this business. So, what makes everyone think that being myself will suddenly change my career?

I had to be a fucking character to be different from myself because I was dull and boring when I came in; I literally sent everyone to sleep. I was a pussy for being afraid of my anger, a pussy for not having the balls to stand up for myself and allowed to be picked on like I've had to go through my entire life, being rejected.

In fact, I won more titles now as my angry self than I did in the past, and that's because Minerva sparked a fire in me I never had before which she was right with, and I feel fucking good to let the anger I had trapped inside. I won the Underground title, which I wouldn't have if I continued being myself. People wanted me to get angry and let loose, and I'm sticking to it.

Shaun, all these monsters talk, especially Xander, who's not even a monster anymore and never was, is garbage because he was no monster, just pretended to be. I don't even know about the other monster dude and I don't give a damn what he's done or in the hall of fame, he's irrelevant.

Oh, and let's not forget that while I'm a piece of garbage, let's talk about when you strangled a woman back in the day. How I refuse to stand up for your shitty behaviour. God damn, I may have allowed myself to be in that position and given Minerva permission in the past to strangle me, but I'd never ever put my hands around a woman's throat, at least not a part of a wrestling match in the wrestling business.

My twin brother has not done that, and that's saying something. You have tenancies to be violent, and I want you to bring that to me. I don't want the soft bitch Shaun trying to defend his family and this broken-ass business that New Blood has ruined to make wrestling respect every opponent with no hatred and wars because they are too gutless and pussies to do so.

But did you think my team even wanted to be solos wrestlers? Without them, there would be even more of a mess of a tag division because they are dedicated to winning the world tag titles and that's all they want to do, no different to Kim's entire SCW run chasing the Underground title. Why is what Kim is doing good, and what Dakon and Ludvig want to achieve is bad? They aren't interested in being the best solos wrestlers or winning the US, Adrenaline, TV, Underground or World Solos titles because it's not their goal, and it never will be. They want the World Tag Titles, and that's it.

Also, how are they my lackies when I don't even hang around with them outside the ring? Heck, I have rarely even been in tag matches with them. I see Polly hanging around with Colleen and Asling being their lackies more backstage than me with them. But all because they are solos wrestlers, they are still lackies to Polly. The only time I do hang around with Dakon and Ludvig is to discuss wrestling plans. Well, at the moment, I am looking into a Turkish wrestler I'm bringing into the wrestling business soon who will be a part of the team and who will end up going against me because he will be wrestling on his own, too.

I got a few more wrestlers in Europe that because of me, Dakon and Ludvig, they are inspired to be wrestlers too and some want to be solos wrestlers, two of them from Hungary and France want to become wrestlers after I leave. There are always going to be European wrestlers coming in because of me; that started the European Wrestling revelation that nobody in the SCW roster had the balls or a pair of tits to try. Dakon and Ludvig inspired a lot of European wrestlers outside of the UK and Ireland to get into this business because they are an exclusive tag team committed to growing the team without ever being solo wrestlers.

But I have no problems ending you in the ring and no problems proving how much bullshit you spoke and how much I'm willing to fucking destroy you. Yes, there will be violence and blood because you pissed me off when I did fuckall to you to how you said I disrespected the business when I fucking didn't. All because I had unfinished business with Enigma, and I still do. I'm not giving up my quest to face him because CHBK said I gave up my shot at revenge. He can fuck off with that.

Because I could face him, especially when he becomes the US champion, and I will be chasing him for that title. You temporarily halted my quest, and I'll pay for everything you've said and done to me. I wasn't going to allow you to say shit to me and my team by their own choice, not me attacking your studios, and the Turkish future wrestler was a part of the whole thing as well as Ludvig and Dakon were.

The point is that shouldn't be what you were upset with, and you had to go to CHBK to demand a match against me when I would've accepted the match if you asked anyway because I don't allow people to say shit about me and get away with it. You know that better than anyone, and it'll be nice to send you packing along with pussy ass Owen, who ran because he couldn't hack it anymore.

I won't be running anywhere, and you'll be crushed by a flaming rock that will destroy you all over the ring, and you'll see what I'm capable of doing tomorrow at Rise To Greatness. Be ready for a loss you'll get because I'm ready to get this violent match started with me crushing you, bloody you open and win because I can and I will, end of story.”